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I see the doctors tomorrow.
IDK what to if my meds aren't helping and I still feel bad. What is there left to do.

I feel like at my wits end trying to control me which isn't me.
I'm so sorry to hear this. It's sounds like such a hard situation, so it's hard to give advice.. But I hope you stick to the things you love and that you feel some relief soon

I feel so dark. I feel so alone. I am so disappointed. I want it to stop. I don't want to go on. Im so tired of trying i dont want to.

Why cant i be positive why must i be negative like this im so lost. Please dont torture me be positive let me heal mind please.
these words are relatable.. I'm sorry you feel this way,but please try to hold on a bit more..

Quarantine has taken a heavy toll on my mental health. I feel so overwhelmed by all the work I get and also not knowing when I can leave my house safely. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family to death, but sometimes I want to be around other people sometimes. I feel trapped in my own home.
That sucks, I really hope things will get better for everyone soon. Stay strong
 

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The new medication seems to be working well.
I try not to get stressed, so it doesn't bring my condition to full bloom.
But sometimes it just happens and my sleeping pattern needs to be reworked.
it's crap as it is now.

my tiredness I see some fascinating and scary things.
almost like purgatory in a sense.
 
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The new medication seems to be working well.
I try not to get stressed, so it doesn't bring my condition to full bloom.
But sometimes it just happens and my sleeping pattern needs to be reworked.
it's crap as it is now.

my tiredness I see some fascinating and scary things.
almost like purgatory in a sense.
that's good at least. Keep trying for yourself, I think you're doing well :)
 

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that's good at least. Keep trying for yourself, I think you're doing well :)
Thanks :) I try my best with coping everyday, even if it's a challenge.
Just glad I am alive most of all, rather than a statistic.
 

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I'm glad the medication is working *hugs*

And when you say purgatory, I'm suddenly imagining the Hellraiser movies... Which would both be sort of cool but also pretty crappy (as is my attempt at humor).
That's actually a good likeness to it and I think your joke was cute, so no worries! :)
Maybe now I can get on with better things, instead of being strangled by my own condition half the time.
 

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Aww, haha. Thanks ^^

And yeah, I really, really hope so <3 But even on the off days, we're here :nekolove:
Yush <3 For hugs and a good ear to talk to <3
 

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And scratches behind ears :'D

(Anyone else who reads this is going to be like "What")
They know I am a black metal kitty by now :)
They have to deal with it >: )
 
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Sometimes I get so tired of my mom. I love her a lot and wouldn’t replace her for anything but she’s extremely toxic.

I haven’t had sugar or ate anything unhealthy for 3 weeks and I wanted something, so I made this cookie dough dip. This morning my mom kept implying I’m fat and then victimizing herself when I told her to stop. Then she’ll bring up when she was 14 and skinny, playing soccer and compare it to me, whose a healthy weight and doesn’t play sports. Then she’ll imply I’m fat for eating cookie dough dip

Just now I was in the bathroom brushing my hair and she comes in. I had money I wanted to put in the bank and the question she asked wasn’t that big of a deal. But then she completely blew off what I said two times, and when I tell her to listen, she immediately victimizes herself and storms off.

We get in arguments often because I get impatient and everything is against her. I always apologized after though but then one day she told me to stop apologizing. I told her that I’m always the one saying sorry and she’ll just say it’s “constructive” criticism when in reality, she says I’ll become fat and that I have ODD because I don’t agree with her. Also kinda sucks arguing with her because she always tries to hit me when she gets offended

I’ve tried confronting her about it but it always ends the same. Her calling me fat “out of concern.” I do get that, my friend and I use to eat really unhealthy after school but that was short lived lol. But her “concern” is becoming irrational because calling me a disabled and autistic cow isn’t really going to help.

I love my mom a lot but I don’t really like being constantly criticized. My dad says that’s just the way she is and she isn’t going to change. I don’t like arguing with my mom but I also don’t want her to comment on everything I do differently from her
 
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Sometimes I get so tired of my mom. I love her a lot and wouldn’t replace her for anything but she’s extremely toxic.

I haven’t had sugar or ate anything unhealthy for 3 weeks and I wanted something, so I made this cookie dough dip. This morning my mom kept implying I’m fat and then victimizing herself when I told her to stop. Then she’ll bring up when she was 14 and skinny, playing soccer and compare it to me, whose a healthy weight and doesn’t play sports. Then she’ll imply I’m fat for eating cookie dough dip

Just now I was in the bathroom brushing my hair and she comes in. I had money I wanted to put in the bank and the question she asked wasn’t that big of a deal. But then she completely blew off what I said two times, and when I tell her to listen, she immediately victimizes herself and storms off.

We get in arguments often because I get impatient and everything is against her. I always apologized after though but then one day she told me to stop apologizing. I told her that I’m always the one saying sorry and she’ll just say it’s “constructive” criticism when in reality, she says I’ll become fat and that I have ODD because I don’t agree with her. Also kinda sucks arguing with her because she always tries to hit me when she gets offended

I’ve tried confronting her about it but it always ends the same. Her calling me fat “out of concern.” I do get that, my friend and I use to eat really unhealthy after school but that was short lived lol. But her “concern” is becoming irrational because calling me a disabled and autistic cow isn’t really going to help.

I love my mom a lot but I don’t really like being constantly criticized. My dad says that’s just the way she is and she isn’t going to change. I don’t like arguing with my mom but I also don’t want her to comment on everything I do differently from her
That doesn't sound right at all... It's not okay and you shouldn't have to deal with this, please don't let people manipulate you though I know it's easier said than done, especially since it's your mother.. It's even more disappointing that your father just goes along with it :/ I hope you have someone to lean on...
 
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That doesn't sound right at all... It's not okay and you shouldn't have to deal with this, please don't let people manipulate you though I know it's easier said than done, especially since it's your mother.. It's even more disappointing that your father just goes along with it :/ I hope you have someone to lean on...
I do ! My bestfriend has it even worse then me so I have somebody to relate to lol
Also thank you for quoting on the Mental Health thread. It makes me happy when I know somebody will be there lol :maheart:
 
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sadly this happens, people that are hurt often hurt others too.. it's great that you recognize this. I think if you apologize and make sure not to do it again, things can be okay again
 

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Have to find a way to distract myself. The abnormalities I go through seem to be rising and falling faster than the norm allows.
Maybe it's because I just switched pills. But I've had nightmares every night now. It's depressing as well as annoying.

Side effects suck.

They said the world was mine to conquer, so why does it feel like its conquering me - saviour
 
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Have to find a way to distract myself. The abnormalities I go through seem to be rising and falling faster than the norm allows.
Maybe it's because I just switched pills. But I've had nightmares every night now. It's depressing as well as annoying.

Side effects suck.

They said the world was mine to conquer, so why does it feel like its conquering me - saviour
aw stay strong my friend.. <3 and that quote is so true too..
 

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aw stay strong my friend.. <3 and that quote is so true too..
Thanks and they are an Australian band. I like their grit haha <3
I have an appointment come Friday, hopefully the sniffles I have go away by then. : /
 
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no one would ever guess just how many times I've written my sincere feelings here and then simply deleted it all instead of posting it
 

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I sometimes don't like going outside, because I feel like people are always staring at me and making fun of my appearance subliminally.
Paranoia seems to take the reigns of my mind more often than that.

And just downright fear and anxiety of exaggereted scenarios that would never happen.
 

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I keep re-writing this. I just have trouble actually thinking about how to put this into words.

I don't feel alive. Like, I'm doing the motions of living. I'm eating. I'm drinking. I'm sleeping. I'm interacting. I'm joking. But I feel like I'm not really thinking about things. My old childhood friend asked me what I wanted to do after college, and I didn't know what to say. I could've said writing, or business. I could have said travel. I could have said anything, but I just said "nothing." It's not like I don't know what I want to do, it's that I literally want to do nothing. Just sleep forever. I'm trying to distract myself by doing new things, but the thought of just doing nothing and not living won't leave me alone.

I'm getting more distant from my family. I told my mom I love her, and she replied with an "emrrmnng yeah whatever" like she always does, but for some reason, I feel more distant from her. I know it's probably just me overthinking, but I feel like a waste of money for my family. I'm not doing something financially stable. I'm taking creative writing and business. Sure, the business can be financially stable, but was the writing necessary? My grades are not that great. I have trouble in almost every subject, even the subjects I love. I think I'm spiraling.

The other day I skipped my meals, and when I ate today, I thought about making myself throw up. I've always struggled with self-esteem, but yesterday I really wanted to remove the food I had consumed. I know it's not safe, and I know it's not good for me, but I always keep thinking if I do it only once it won't hurt anything. I don't like feeling that. I only didn't do it because I knew my roommate would hear it.
 
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I sometimes don't like going outside, because I feel like people are always staring at me and making fun of my appearance subliminally.
Paranoia seems to take the reigns of my mind more often than that.

And just downright fear and anxiety of exaggereted scenarios that would never happen.
that sounds awful, I'm sorry, friend.. stay strong..

I keep re-writing this. I just have trouble actually thinking about how to put this into words.

I don't feel alive. Like, I'm doing the motions of living. I'm eating. I'm drinking. I'm sleeping. I'm interacting. I'm joking. But I feel like I'm not really thinking about things. My old childhood friend asked me what I wanted to do after college, and I didn't know what to say. I could've said writing, or business. I could have said travel. I could have said anything, but I just said "nothing." It's not like I don't know what I want to do, it's that I literally want to do nothing. Just sleep forever. I'm trying to distract myself by doing new things, but the thought of just doing nothing and not living won't leave me alone.

I'm getting more distant from my family. I told my mom I love her, and she replied with an "emrrmnng yeah whatever" like she always does, but for some reason, I feel more distant from her. I know it's probably just me overthinking, but I feel like a waste of money for my family. I'm not doing something financially stable. I'm taking creative writing and business. Sure, the business can be financially stable, but was the writing necessary? My grades are not that great. I have trouble in almost every subject, even the subjects I love. I think I'm spiraling.

The other day I skipped my meals, and when I ate today, I thought about making myself throw up. I've always struggled with self-esteem, but yesterday I really wanted to remove the food I had consumed. I know it's not safe, and I know it's not good for me, but I always keep thinking if I do it only once it won't hurt anything. I don't like feeling that. I only didn't do it because I knew my roommate would hear it.
I think that's okay, to be at that place for a little while.. idk why your mom responded that way but she most likely loves you back even if she gave you a flawed reply. You are not a waste of anything, you're a human being and you have value, please try not to think that way. As for your school/career choices, it's amazing to me that you are doing anything and especially something you care about rather than something that will bring you money or whatever. There's much beauty in that, don't you forget that, it's brave and beautiful imo....

please never do this, it will do you no good and it's a very dangerous game to play. Please focus on your health and well-being <3
 

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that sounds awful, I'm sorry, friend.. stay strong..



I think that's okay, to be at that place for a little while.. idk why your mom responded that way but she most likely loves you back even if she gave you a flawed reply. You are not a waste of anything, you're a human being and you have value, please try not to think that way. As for your school/career choices, it's amazing to me that you are doing anything and especially something you care about rather than something that will bring you money or whatever. There's much beauty in that, don't you forget that, it's brave and beautiful imo....

please never do this, it will do you no good and it's a very dangerous game to play. Please focus on your health and well-being <3
Thank you. It's nice to hear that, even if my brain sometimes doesn't let me process it. I hoep with time I'll soon get more confident. I'll focus on health for now, but thank you again. <3
 

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I dreamed I moved from the area I am now and I felt better.
But then I wake up and still am in the same lame ass town as usual sigh

Even my dreams don't want me to succeed just like life.
Idk why I even bother getting up everyday, I should just sleep it all away...
 

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