Happy Birthday to my favourite, my ub, one of the biggest reasons I began loving Korean music
I wish you knew, you don't know how much happiness you've given me just by being you
I laughed at your laugh, felt comfort and joy because of your voice, admired the way you carry yourself
Your strength inspires me, even today, especially today.
I'm truly unhappy, this fact is difficult for me to really face and accept. I guess I figured early on that a personality like mine isn't made or meant to be happy. Despite this, I would've laughed years ago if you told me I would end up unhappy to this extent. How much nicer it would've been if a person like me didn't come to exist.
Me: *Unsure how to put a lifetime of thoughts in a few words but try to imply or outright say I often wish I didn't exist and other dark thoughts*
Them: You have no reason! Well, you smile! Everyone has different definitions of happiness! Try harder!
Me: I went and shared a vulnerable side of myself for this