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Fat and depressed. And you?

same, just add a scoop of anxiety of not knowing if I am allowed to skip that team-building activities work trip..... the longer I am waiting for the response of my email, the more I think it is just a camouflage to play squid game work edition and we are all gonna die... oh wait, it´s just me who is gonna die because I have panic attacks and I´m a shitty person and I´m afraid people are gonna discover that and hate me even more :D "laughing in pain"

Just say you aren't feeling good. Don't make yourself miserable. Reminds me of how I was forced to go to summer camp for two weeks and I fucking hated it. "Oh it's going to be so much fun, you'll love it." Um no, I'd rather stay home and do nothing than that. Or how parents force their kids into sports. I hate society. OPTIONAL should always be a choice. Whether or not if there will be repercussions.

I agree with you. I am just not into that, I do a lot of team building activities with my class but if someone says no, then I don´t insist on them participating. Sure, I try to persuade them but you can´t move a stone.
unfortunately, that is not an option. if I say I am sick, he won´t believe me. we went on a school trip with my class and he let me stay there despite high fever, shivering and no speaking voice. he kinda hates me if we might put it that way. sure, he is professional enough not to say that, but his actions are kind of eye opening? I guess? he doesn´t really care about my arguments. my only hope is that my colleague was allowed to come to school and work instead (cleaning, sorting things out etc.) so that would be unfair if I wasn´t. on the other hand, she is taking her of her older mother so that is an excuse you can barely fight. I don´t want to make up excuses - no kids, nothing so he is gonna be like "why are you not going?" I dunno... panic attacks? social anxiety?? self-hate? my colleagues openly treat me like shit IN HIS FACE and he lets them. he just likes the fun.
I already barely sleep ... I know I´m crazy and it is hard to understand how I manage daily? but like I am two different people? I can be that fun person for the kiddos, but in reality I am a depressed freak :D

That's insanely ridiculous. Everyone seems like a prude. Isn't it enough having to see their asses every single day? I'm sorry they are treating you unfairly. Especially since you work so hard and are committed to teaching the kiddos. You deserve a break all to yourself. Why would anyone want to spend time with people who they work with outside of work? Me personally, I'm not trying to make friends. Just trying to do my job and go home. Busy enough as it. Don't need to take anyone else's shit. I have a feeling most of my coworkers don't like me because I'll admit, I'm pretty much a bitch when I'm not happy. I have little patience and I hate when people can't perform even the most simplest tasks given to them, so you're the one having to clean up their mess. The kind of people you're dealing with I wouldn't even bother speaking to them. If they say anything just smile and walk away. Don't wanna breathe in anymore of their toxic fumes. You should wear a shirt that says,"Sorry I'm late, I didn't want to come." LOL

ahah, we´d work well together. again, just like online I prefer people who are open with their feelings and thoughts. it´s ok not to like me but be ok to like respect me? just be fair and treat me the way I treat you. God, there are so many people I dislike at work, some for their personalities, others because I hate their attitude towards teaching. when I started at that school I was the only "liberal and weird" one now I have younger colleagues who are cut out of the same wood. things got easier but how to put it when you look at me I don´t command respect. I have a very ... gray mouse ... girly... soft look? so people just think they can treat me as they wish and I will ...cry? but I really don´t :D. I am way more emotionless than I look or than I sound ahah. anyway let´s wait how this drama unfolds.
I wish we could work together ... so much shade would be thrown :D.
share the fun stories of the fun place :D.

also I really wish I had a colleague as you♥