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been quite busy in the last few months but im doing okay! a little exhausted though so i gotta rest up a little

wbu? how have you been?

Our busy bee, hope you rest well

Not much but I did figure that I am 99% likely to have adhd AND i managed to tell my uncle such big steps, so proud of myself his reaction wasn't great but I'm gonna persist to get checked

double posted, trashy internet

thanks halmeoni i'll rest up and work hard

when are you getting it checked?

I like that name

Well we are staying here with my grandma whose disabled and needs someone 24/7, we wont be leaving till maybe april? so probably then Ig

I'm too scared to bring it up again, I will need to prep again

arent u going to ask why ur my halmeoni

good luck! u got this

Why am I your Halmeoni?

if you say it, I believe it

bc halmeoni sounds like harmony LOL ok bye this is so lame

I like the name, my new fav nickname

HIIIIIII

oh hi grandma

what brings u here?

Hi, I saw u around yesterday and decided to sneak onto your kps house

How are you doing? I'm mentally in the abyss

LOL where did u spot me

im doing pretty good! spring started a few days ago and the sakura flowers are all in full bloom now so i went to see them last week! was nice touching grass for a bit

why r u mentally in the abyss though

Idk, in a thread, I will check later maybe and find it

Yayyy!!! those are so pretty!!! Take pics

I was coding I have a 99% of having ADHD and am attempting to go get it diagnosed in the meantime, the last 10 FRICKING MONTHS are my biggest example of ADHD executive dysfunction I had 1 coding tut to follow and I just had to do whatever the coder did and it's like a 4 day project and I still procrastinated for 10 months and the past 3 days, I did some part of the video a day as my uncle put pressure on me and today, MAGICLLY, I managed to force myself to do 5 hours of the video, the adhd gods gave me one lucky day it was so mentally draining tho, took all day and every 10 minutes felt like torture

I completed it, took a bath, ate and drew for a while, today was just weird I didn't make so much progress in all these months

where r u learning how to code

isnt that just procrastination though idk bc i do the same thing sometimes too LOL

rmb to take breaks in between ur studying sessions grandma, dont get burnt out. its ok to take things slow too! small progress is better than none

YouTube, documentations, w3schools, chatgpt and google, they help you know your stuff on any language

They look similiar but they are actually quite different.

Lazy = you don't wanna do a task so you choose not and you're fine with that, you don't care if it gets done or not.

Procrastination: You wanna do the task but you keep putting it off cuz you find it difficult/boring/time-consuming

Executive dysfunction: you WANT to do that task, at this very moment, there is no significant reason not to, but you can't because your brain is struggling to transition between activities.

Also the person who gave this description of the 3 mentioned that their therapist told them the key difference was the feelings of guilt and shame.

I felt horrible everyday that I wasn't doing it, stressed, I had arguments with my uncle over the project not being completed yet, I felt useless and just so bad and so many times I cried, I didn't understand how I could CRY about it and not just get it over with, I wanted more than ANYTHING to have it done and completed and I knew I could if I started but starting took so much energy and STAYING to complete was next to impossible yesterday was a weird miracle and I thank the lords above for it

Shhh shh , if I take breaks, I won't be back for a few months, it's all at once or nothing

ah that makes sense

its a good thing u completed it though! dont be so hard on yourself, you're doing great imo maybe u can try breaking ur tasks into smaller tasks and set small but realistic goals