I just find it to be an incredibly boring course and I don't really talk to anyone in class, No one interests me in there to have a conversation with, besides the teacher which is pretty sad.
It"s a business administration course as I said I think before.
But I don't even want to attend the...
To the point I barely eat one meal a day now. I just don't feel like it a lot, especially when I am depressed.
And I have been severely anorexic before years ago.
The hospital had to feed me for two weeks once it was that bad, to gain my regular weight back.
I know I am heading down that path...
Like Monday and Thursday I have classes, Tuesday I have my carer most of the day and Friday I have doctor appointments.
I don't even really work at all and its this filled up. What a pain in the ass.
Weekends I hang with friends, so that's ok. But yeah. I don't like this at all...
Mostly because the messed up lyrics and gore filled nostalgia made me feel happy.
But then again. Soft music doesn't make me sleep me at all so. : /
It just felt so crazy at the time and I was so depressed and then I felt better from listening to
The time to kill is now, necrosadistic warning...
I am kind of over having a penis, that doesn't even climax when I want it too. Can't get a phat on at all (I think due to medications)
And no one really appreciating my manhood for what it is. : /
So girls of KS, let's trade! xD no trade backs either jk jk
The only people that like it are...
When I was walking into town here.
Which just happens to be less than 5 minutes away from where I live yay <3
Behemoth's Evangelion (2OO9)
Lady Gaga's Chromatica (2020)
They charged me only 19.99 for behemoth when it said 37 on it? So hmmmm
Quite a different genre of both, but I do like...
Just been feeling in a funk a lot lately. Just depressed and miserable feeling no hoper.
I feel like my life has just gone to the dogs and I don't feel like doing anything about it anymore.
Just been sleeping most of the day, occasionally eating and feeling like crap in general.
I don't usually make these, if at all. But I figured why not for once. Since I like the design I did so much.
The fact I didn't even use a high quality stock for it is even more amazing lol
Just some facts of the character, for those that don't know
The anime wizard barristers: The same...
Never been assessed before, so I don't know what to expect from it.
But from all my average to below average grades, my real struggle in my current course cert III and how I totally failed an entry exam in the air force. 68 wrong out of 70 questions.
Also my very low attention span, getting...
- first and foremost my extremely phobic and opinionated family.
saying hurtful things like 'I have strange ideas or its not normal'
My step mother once cornered me in the car once and said in her 'culture'
women are women and men are men or some bs story.
then she demanded not...
I love my hair so much, it's like my best friend. I'd hate to lose it all :(
*Remembers the time I had hair as long as anything*
Though I never took a photo of it and only my neighbour saw it and he said it was gross. lmao
My dad is bald and so is his dad and his dad's dad was... sigh.
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From aeons hymn, a misery dims
transcending, becoming, transforming
Carving the stone with a blunt knife
a deeper force to be reckoned with
a monument to the lives long since past
the extinguished are always relinquished
headless serpents call my grave home
sewn are the seeds of remorse...
Would play at a function quite proudly <3
It's frenzied like the name, plus full on aggro yo!
I showed two of my mates this. One was impressed, the other haven't heard back from
More bite than straight up melody. Just how I love most of my death metal.
@Bookworm Rejoice at the maniacal <3...
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I got my friends wrong the other day, then my half siblings, but I never see them to be fair at all.
Then I got my grandfathers age wrong and my grans.
I am losing it... My memory has been shocking lately, even for me.
I am getting too old for this : /
I always have to write everything down...
I am excited for it, even though no one in my family is going, because of covid 19.
He is doing it via video stream I believe.
Yes and this is the same brother of mine who has a twin as a gf.
And she is pregnant as well. Bub due in October.
And you're probably wondering why I am not married...
Death comes to those that deserve it
I am worth it, I tell myself this thought everyday
the undying light follows me in every direction
everlasting pain, never gaining a foothold
so I was told, when the valleys merge, so do hearts a flutter
muttering under my breath, a death wish
a gazing star...
Finding more family again after my a billionth re-do of my tree.
I also put pictures for everything, so whenever you look it up it looks glorious.
So in closing, I am still around and stuff.
Just been headfirst into family history.
@MinSquishy @Lady_Grey @kinnie @Bookworm
Which is why I try to see it in a positive light with dancing, rather than being paranoid like hundreds of other people lol.
Dancing around people just to shop though, what a world we live in 2020.
I hope the months to come is more dancing and more positive reflection.
Rather than being a fruit...