YES! Work More! Make More Money! Pay Bills! Pay for school! Yes, All The Adulting Of Things!
I mean, my life is going to get a bit better to manage. But for the past few weeks I have gotten a second job in the evening. I had to or my mother was going to continue to terrorize me with her own anxiety every night staying up and cry-yelling. No thank you. My mother agreed with good reasoning that I left my day job, but I'm still applying for full time jobs. But I like this is the busiest I think I've worked in my life. I mean, I'm used to pulling the occasional 12 hour shifts on a 6 day work week but still the most consistent sleep I kept getting was 5 hours.
I would come home with my free dinner, eat, hydrate, take meds, wash uniform, bathe in epsom salt (15 mins if just feet, 25 - 30 mins if shaving/shampooing/conditioning/etc), trying to destress by watching youtube videos or a kdrama, and then shutting off lights. I'm sleeping at like midnight, then getting up at 5 am. In addition, this past week my hormones have been... Idk.
Probably because I'm so stressed and overwhelmed, my hormones are a mess too?! Responding to the stress?! I also have a high libido, so I have to masturbate at least once a day. Horniness ain't a choice, ya'll. How you handle it is. I almost lost another toy to my dog because I fell asleep right there on the spot after a self-loving session.
Welp, I got home after work tonight. Last official day of my day job tomorrow. But yeah, I"m having shortness of breath and some other things going on. I wasn't planning for an anxiety attack, but here we are. I just want Woobin to stroke my head. : ( And sleep.
I was originally supposed to go to a wine bar tomorrow night to drink and celebrate leaving my day job. But I'm so scared I'll be too tired tomorrow. Like, I really want to catch up on sleep and nap. But would I be able to nap? ;_; I don't usually nap because I have trouble falling asleep during day time and I wish to god I had those special curtains that blind out sunlight.
I'm sorry my threads have been negative and things. My life has a lot of up and happy things too. But like maslow's hierarchy, the basics of what I need are to sleep, breathe, and sex.
I mean, my life is going to get a bit better to manage. But for the past few weeks I have gotten a second job in the evening. I had to or my mother was going to continue to terrorize me with her own anxiety every night staying up and cry-yelling. No thank you. My mother agreed with good reasoning that I left my day job, but I'm still applying for full time jobs. But I like this is the busiest I think I've worked in my life. I mean, I'm used to pulling the occasional 12 hour shifts on a 6 day work week but still the most consistent sleep I kept getting was 5 hours.
I would come home with my free dinner, eat, hydrate, take meds, wash uniform, bathe in epsom salt (15 mins if just feet, 25 - 30 mins if shaving/shampooing/conditioning/etc), trying to destress by watching youtube videos or a kdrama, and then shutting off lights. I'm sleeping at like midnight, then getting up at 5 am. In addition, this past week my hormones have been... Idk.
Probably because I'm so stressed and overwhelmed, my hormones are a mess too?! Responding to the stress?! I also have a high libido, so I have to masturbate at least once a day. Horniness ain't a choice, ya'll. How you handle it is. I almost lost another toy to my dog because I fell asleep right there on the spot after a self-loving session.
Welp, I got home after work tonight. Last official day of my day job tomorrow. But yeah, I"m having shortness of breath and some other things going on. I wasn't planning for an anxiety attack, but here we are. I just want Woobin to stroke my head. : ( And sleep.
I was originally supposed to go to a wine bar tomorrow night to drink and celebrate leaving my day job. But I'm so scared I'll be too tired tomorrow. Like, I really want to catch up on sleep and nap. But would I be able to nap? ;_; I don't usually nap because I have trouble falling asleep during day time and I wish to god I had those special curtains that blind out sunlight.
I'm sorry my threads have been negative and things. My life has a lot of up and happy things too. But like maslow's hierarchy, the basics of what I need are to sleep, breathe, and sex.