Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (4 Viewers)

[Starlight4370]

Gonna keep on truckin

 

[dollette]

I am always there

 

[Starlight4370]

Mental menace. Just rack off already pls

 

[cocomelon]

I feel safe enough to say this and I hope you guys can help:
I'm tired of trying to seem happy all the time. My best friend is moving away and she was the only one who ever understood me. The sad thing is though that she is a bad influence on me and I know she is but I don't have anyone else. I have really bad social anxiety so I can't even manage to talk to anyone. I get made fun of in school and one time, this girl saw me watching NCT and she said "Why are you watching people who started the coronavirus!?" This boy gave me a note saying that he likes me and I was so happy since I had been rejected about 20 times since kindergarten. I don't remember kindergarten a lot but I remember that day perfectly. I came up to this boy and told him I liked him and he said 'Why would I like someone who looks like they crawled out of a dumpster?" The other times I've been rejected they always say the same thing: You're nice but you're not my type. It turned out that the boy who gave me a note did that on a dare and he only did it because he knew that I would believe him since I'm too ugly to ever get anyone. Plus, there's this cute boy that I like in my science class and I told my mom about it. She was very happy about it until I told her that he's Asian and I saw the disappointment on her face and she just said "That's nice". She was so happy until she knew that he was Asian and a different race than me. Every time I get a k-pop album, I'm terrified because I know my parents will make rude comments about how they look and how I can even like this music when I'm not Korean and I don't understand it. I know these are dumb reasons to be depressed but every single day, I'm wishing that I could die but I could never do it. I know that I don't deserve anyone and that I look like a raccoon that crawled out of a sewer but I still wish that I would have someone who would understand me and love me for who I am.

first of all, i’m so sorry you are having to go through all that, those kids you mentioned who said those things about you, they aren’t kids, they are living and breathing scum of the earth so i know it’s hard not to take these things right to the heart, but trust me, it is not worth your time to think about all of that.
i know it’s hard to have the one friend who cares about you go away from you, and it will take time to process that, so just try your best to stay in touch with her. that’s all you can do. life is unpredictable and right now it’s a bad time for you. but yk what it’s gonna end pretty soon.
idk anything about your personality but i just wanna say that, i went through something pretty similar in middle school. i got bullied a ton because of how gay i was and i did horrible in academics, but yk what i think we all never want to live that life. so i decided to change myself, slowly. you also need to focus on yourself now first. fuck the world, fuck what your stupid school kids think about you and fuck your parents for having that stupid mindset. right now if you really wanna help move on from this, you should start doing what you love, without any care or worry of any type of judgement. dress how you love, eat what you love, listen to what you love and try your best at school and if anyone there tries to say shit about you, you shun them what will they do? bullies are nothing but kids with fragile egos who hadn’t had love their whole life. so they are pretty weak. so hang in there don’t have stupid thoughts about ending it all. please 🤍

 

[dollette]

stepped out of my mind for just a moment, they took over too quickly.
cannot get them out.
going crazy

 

[Starlight4370]

Breathing after an event, Feels so fake.

 

[dollette]

NOT CUNTERELLA!!!!
brain is not cunterella-ing like it should be
kill meeeee

 

[Starlight4370]

Preparing the finale. lts hard yakka.

 

[cocomelon]

either im the problem or either i just attract stupid fucking people

 

[cocomelon]

yk what fuck it

 

[cocomelon]

i just wish that people were as sensitive as i am to them

 

[cocomelon]

honestly, it's really simple. you don't know the bond i have with twice and if you think they are fake then you clearly don't know them at all. and i don't think of them as my gods or anything, fuck it i don't even care about them knowing about me or my existence. i just have immense respect for them. as artists, as human beings. their music literally made me feel good amidst my absolutely shitty life. it's really easy to throw around words like that, but you don't know how much it hurts the other person.

 

[cocomelon]

i guess i'm the fucking fool huh. i tried being the nicest to you, i hyped you up everytime you felt low, i tried doing everything to keep you happy but then this is what i get. THIS IS WHAT I FUCKING GET.

 

[cocomelon]

i was literally having a great day but now my head is exploding and i wanna cry

 

[cocomelon]

just those little things, they make me spiral they do. i either spiral myself into thinking how shitty my life is or by thinking how bad of a person i am to ruin my friendships like this.

 

[Starlight4370]

I cannot hold back on their advances . They get in always.

 

[sosa]

Spoiler: tw sh

he didn't make me hurt myself, I don't want him to think that
but he won't listen to me.
So I feel worsw
and its a terrible cycle.

 

[Starlight4370]

I treasure nothing and my dialogue remains closed.

 

[mudd]

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[Starlight4370]

I should get that cd I think,