Even if it's all wrong, a delusion, a lie.. I really wish I could believe in something more or better..... A thing like destiny or purpose, even karma.. but I've always just felt that life is such a random mess, just chaos, and countless coincidences thrown and mixed together.. I don't see any order, any logic, or meaning.. I can't know what to expect or what the rules to play by are.. and you'd think all that would make it easier for me, I wouldn't take it seriously because I realize it doesn't really matter that much, but no, it makes it all much harder to endure.. I can never be free.. the only meaning there will be is a temporary one and one I create myself, the only logic is something I base on what I've experienced so far.. the one thing I can do is keep going and try my best, that's all.. I know many won't agree with this and I like that, it's a good thing for you and I wish I could see the world through your eyes too..