Weird gay rant.... Like a really weird one (1 Viewer)

[maruberry]

This is a weird way to put it BUT

I think I was into kpop boygroups to pretend I was into men.
Like I always knew I liked women, but for YEARS I pretended I was also into men and just ignored the other side completely (Looking back tho, how in tf did I ever fool myself)
Along with that came being into male kpop idols....

I've noticed that now that I've really admitted to being a pureblooded sapphic.... boygroups don't interest me nearly as much
Like I listen to the songs still and I love new songs from boygroups as well... But I don't STAN them y'know? The members mean very little to me

This overall just made me think about the psychology behind idols etc
I still love Kai though, although I do admit a HECK of a ton less than at the height of my denial (most of which is archived on this site in the form of 18+ posts... if you're curious feel free to look them up lmao)

So yeah I'm just here to ramble mostly


TLDR : I got into male idols to fuel my gay denial

 

[Juniverse]

Congrats on being gay

18+ posts

I was exploring the site once and came across a thread of yours about Ten and Kun. That's all I will say

 

[maruberry]

Congrats on being gay

I was exploring the site once and came across a thread of yours about Ten and Kun. That's all I will say

There's so many weird 18+ threads from me XD
KunTen is a great ship

 

[athenarose]

No cause like same to an extent

I'd make up lies in middle school saying I was dating the idol on my phone background instead of admitting I liked girls

 

[Ahsoka]

I’m one of the lucky few who is a true lesbian and is a bg stan it seems

 

[Jimimis]

mostly happy to not be scarred by ur threads anymore