Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (7 Viewers)

[doll]

another stop ? really ? making me wanna stay home , shoulda stayed home.
til 4 ? why an hour.
i almost fell alseep.
where even am i?
i shouldnt care
i'll be there soon, but more than 8 hours, now.

 

[doll]

no se dará ni se tomará amor en esta traslación, no se tomará ni se dará odio en esta traslación. falso amor, falsos sentimientos, falsos recuerdos. nada se olvidará, pero nada se lamentará. todo estará perdido, no realmente. solo amor nuestro amor. perdió. en el vacío para siempre. ¿para qué era? No te odio, no me amas. No hables de mí, mi amor. eres un mentiroso. Los mentirosos también merecen amor, pero solo tú eres el indicado para que yo ame. Oye tienes razón, soy yo. la tensión es caliente, llameante. Está bien, siempre he sido malo. tú y yo estuvimos juntos en el momento equivocado. ¿Me usó para superar a quién? está bien. podemos estar tristes juntos, al final. Tocaré mis tristes canciones de violín, lo odio. amor al fin. el amor nunca dura.

breaking the rules again, beaner bitch, get off your phone.

 

[athenaaa]

I long to be happy again

 

[uwuJay]

dont love someone if they wont love you back.
you can only trust yourself fr.
look i dont know u man, but it's alright.

Hey thanks. Yeah that’s all tru. It’s just hard sometimes. My dumbass brain doesn’t turn off. That’s for responding tho fr

 

[Deleted member 74]

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I have to accept there is no 'breaking the cycle' or anything in my life, I'm going to wear myself out I'm so tired of trying. My family doesn't know me at all, and I've never been given the opportunity to show the kind of person I am even once in my life. I've had to reach out externally to find acceptance and love, and I've found so much of it in my life I'm grateful that my past has led to this present because I've gone through hell to have it. I can go so long without being spoken to, and only I feel terrible about it because it's only me that cares. I don't want to live like that and I hope this kind of thing ends with me, the thought of having kids only to treat them like this honestly makes me never want to have kids. I imagine them staying up wondering how things fell apart like this when it's not their fault while I sleep peacefully, and it breaks my heart because it makes me wonder how it can be so easy for them to do this to me.

 

[uwuJay]

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I have to accept there is no 'breaking the cycle' or anything in my life, I'm going to wear myself out I'm so tired of trying. My family doesn't know me at all, and I've never been given the opportunity to show the kind of person I am even once in my life. I've had to reach out externally to find acceptance and love, and I've found so much of it in my life I'm grateful that my past has led to this present because I've gone through hell to have it. I can go so long without being spoken to, and only I feel terrible about it because it's only me that cares. I don't want to live like that and I hope this kind of thing ends with me, the thought of having kids only to treat them like this honestly makes me never want to have kids. I imagine them staying up wondering how things fell apart like this when it's not their fault while I sleep peacefully, and it breaks my heart because it makes me wonder how it can be so easy for them to do this to me.

Aw:( ik it’s not much but u can always message me on discord if you need<3

 

[doll]

hoy, 26 de mayo, 12:18 a.m., les estoy dando a todos los niños de 7.º grado de mi escuela secundaria, que siempre compartían refrigerios, que siempre compartían listas de reproducción, que siempre se quedaban despiertos hasta tarde juntos, les estoy dando un abrazo a todos. Estoy muy lejos de todos ellos, pero sé que el amor puede viajar lejos. nunca leerán esta parte de lo que tengo que decirles, pero por favor, tienen tanto. gracias a todos por contactarme primero. espera hasta que podamos hablar en persona, espero que no tengamos que hacerlo. aunque espero que sea mejor entonces

 

[doll]

hoy, 26 de mayo, 12:18 a.m., les estoy dando a todos los niños de 7.º grado de mi escuela secundaria, que siempre compartían refrigerios, que siempre compartían listas de reproducción, que siempre se quedaban despiertos hasta tarde juntos, les estoy dando un abrazo a todos. Estoy muy lejos de todos ellos, pero sé que el amor puede viajar lejos. nunca leerán esta parte de lo que tengo que decirles, pero por favor, tienen tanto. gracias a todos por contactarme primero. espera hasta que podamos hablar en persona, espero que no tengamos que hacerlo. aunque espero que sea mejor entonces

(im aware it can translate to either high or middle school, middle school is the correct translation)

 

[cocomelon]

Spoiler: rant (sensitive)

i am completely and entirely sick of my dad's idiotic decisions and moves like hes literally a dumb fuck. every fucking time he complains about the house being not "organised" or "clean" when hes the fucking person who doesnt know shit about organising or fuck that even keeping things at their fucking place. constantly talking and complaining about he works so hard FUCK YOU you dont work even 1% of how much i and mom work in a day. i work my ass off at school and at house and my mom's constantly keeping control of both the house and her children. and all youve been fucking doing is being a egoistic douchebag who cant even run a fucking business. maybe if you werent so egoistic and wouldve taken the opportunities given to you, you wouldn't have been the only one of your three siblings who hasnt shifted in a foreign country. youre a fucking failure in everything, youre a horrible fucking husband, dad and a person itself. your only personality trait is being a fucking abusive dickhead to your own fucking family. and i absolutely despise your use of the word, depression you say that when youre literally stressed for two days BITCH you have depression ???? i saw d*mestic v*olence at the age of 5 to 10 which i absolutely shouldnt fucking have, but there was no other choice. and all my life you have completely tried to demolish my soul. youre existence makes me suffocate. but still IM TRYING. im trying to live happily. YOU HAVE DEPRESSION??? WELL IF U DO FUCK THAT. FUCK YOUR DEPRESSION AND FUCK YOUR MENTAL HEALTH. I ABSOLUTELY DONT GIVE A FUCK BECAUSE YOU MADE MY FUCKING CHILDHOOD A NIGHTMARE.

 

[doll]

Spoiler: rant (sensitive)

i am completely and entirely sick of my dad's idiotic decisions and moves like hes literally a dumb fuck. every fucking time he complains about the house being not "organised" or "clean" when hes the fucking person who doesnt know shit about organising or fuck that even keeping things at their fucking place. constantly talking and complaining about he works so hard FUCK YOU you dont work even 1% of how much i and mom work in a day. i work my ass off at school and at house and my mom's constantly keeping control of both the house and her children. and all youve been fucking doing is being a egoistic douchebag who cant even run a fucking business. maybe if you werent so egoistic and wouldve taken the opportunities given to you, you wouldn't have been the only one of your three siblings who hasnt shifted in a foreign country. youre a fucking failure in everything, youre a horrible fucking husband, dad and a person itself. your only personality trait is being a fucking abusive dickhead to your own fucking family. and i absolutely despise your use of the word, depression you say that when youre literally stressed for two days BITCH you have depression ???? i saw d*mestic v*olence at the age of 5 to 10 which i absolutely shouldnt fucking have, but there was no other choice. and all my life you have completely tried to demolish my soul. youre existence makes me suffocate. but still IM TRYING. im trying to live happily. YOU HAVE DEPRESSION??? WELL IF U DO FUCK THAT. FUCK YOUR DEPRESSION AND FUCK YOUR MENTAL HEALTH. I ABSOLUTELY DONT GIVE A FUCK BECAUSE YOU MADE MY FUCKING CHILDHOOD A NIGHTMARE.

im sorry boo, he's honestly a cunt and i hope he fixes himself very soon...
maybe you could honestly, call CPS.

 

[uwuJay]

Having someone you really care about leave because you made the tiniest joke honestly really fucks with me.

I always feel like I put so much effort into friendships, answer people as fast as I can, make gifts, ask how they’re doing constantly but people are so quick to discard me. I don’t know what I do wrong. Obviously I’m the problem because it keeps happening, I just don’t know why. I genuinely care about people. I don’t know how to show it:(

 

[doll]

i leave before you do because i need to
i know you wouldnt leave, i know it, youre true to your words
but oh baby, im not getting hurt again.
why not?
because i dont care.
i dont care that youre upset, i dont care that youre worried, i dont care that youre mad, i dont i dont i dont.
now, lover girl, read this please. honest to god, i wish i could care but im forcing myself out of every emotion there is.
mhm

 

[uwuJay]

And it’s not manipulative that I’m suicidal right now. Over the past few months I had my puppy die, got accused of smth serious that I did not do by someone who just wanted to hurt me as much as possible, which stressed me out for weeks, fall outs with friends and family and my girlfriend left. It feels like I’m losing EVERYTHING. I don’t even have anyone to message. It’s not some tactic to get you to talk to me. Not everything is about you. This is how I feel

 

[doll]

And it’s not manipulative that I’m suicidal right now. Over the past few months I had my puppy die, got accused of smth serious that I did not do by someone who just wanted to hurt me as much as possible, which stressed me out for weeks, fall outs with friends and family and my girlfriend left. It feels like I’m losing EVERYTHING. I don’t even have anyone to message. It’s not some tactic to get you to talk to me. Not everything is about you. This is how I feel

yo bro if u need someone to talk to, really really, hmu
i got words to say and ears to listen

 

[cocomelon]

And it’s not manipulative that I’m suicidal right now. Over the past few months I had my puppy die, got accused of smth serious that I did not do by someone who just wanted to hurt me as much as possible, which stressed me out for weeks, fall outs with friends and family and my girlfriend left. It feels like I’m losing EVERYTHING. I don’t even have anyone to message. It’s not some tactic to get you to talk to me. Not everything is about you. This is how I feel

i can understand how that feels. it'd be devastating to suddenly lose the people that once loved and supported you at the same time. but nothing is unlimited. including relationships. someday they end. but the only thing we can do is learn from it, move ahead in our life. it is hard. but little by little, we all get there. life isn't stagnant. you will get new people in your life, that'll love you and care for you. loss can be hard to deal with. but once you lose someone you truly love, you learn so many new things about life and everything surrounding it. death, our emotions, our ability to process it and move on.

and if you ever wanna talk, you can dm me anytime, i'd be happy to talk about it if you like ♡

 

[cocomelon]

Having someone you really care about leave because you made the tiniest joke honestly really fucks with me.

honestly. if that was the case, i don't think they loved you enough. to just overcome that tiny bit. of course, it sucks that you don't get the love and affection back that you give them. but i think it also teaches us one thing. that the world is a cruel place, and not everyone can digest affection; some people are just too ignorant about others' emotions that they totally neglect the clean intentions. it is not your fault. you just need to learn from it, and be careful next time. so you don't get hurt. you know, i also was overly affectionate to everyone and everybody. but after my first breakup, i learned that you need to be a little selfish in this world for the sake of your own happiness. put yourself first.

 

[doll]

no matter how you act, how you look, how you dress, how you talk, someone will find a way to dislike you.

 

[Tickita]

And you will get through this too

 

[Chaeee]

Not my best week at all

 

[cocomelon]

Not my best week at all

lets hope for a better upcoming week 🍀