I'm so overwhelmed and I feel crushed by reality (1 Viewer)

[Day]

Look at all my assignments due this coming week/end.

I'm freaking out, I want to cry, and most of these I have not started.
Monday is going to be the worst, and this is not even my work schedule, just my school schedule.

On Monday I have to give a 5-6 minute speech in front of my peers => Haven't started
On Monday I have an essay due => Haven't started
On Monday I have to read an entire book and take a test on it => Haven't started

And the kicker? Starting tomorrow I work extra hours, 5 days in a row because my job is understaffed.

I want to cry, and I probably will. I'm going to go take an everything shower and stay in there for about an hour.

Spoiler: TW: SUICIDE

I'm reaching this point in my reality where everything is so fucking overwhelming and I can't see a future for myself. It doesn't matter how hard I try because I will always fail and I cannot possibly succeed. I am at a really really low point right now and it's fucking crushing me. I have thought about harming myself very often lately, especially when I'm driving on my way to college/work, and it's starting to scare me. I'm tired of living this life, every second is too painful. I have nothing, I am nothing, I will always be nothing. I'm so fucking tired of living this shit life. Last night I was thinking a lot about taking all the sleeping pills I have, but then I remembered I have to go to work so I can't do that.

It's times like this I thrive being at work, because I work feel numb, and it works. I overwork and push myself to be someone I'm not because it's safer in that headspace than it is in my own. This is my fight, and I'm losing.
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[cocomelon]

hi there. i also faced a similar situation last year, on a regular basis cause the work was just too much and i kept on procrastinating. it is totally okay to feel overwhelmed rn, life can build up intensity pretty fast without even us knowing. take it slow, recollect your mind and start focusing on the tasks, one by one. don't worry about how's it gonna go, just make sure you do your best and i'm pretty sure you'll finish much of your tasks

 

[Day]

hi there. i also faced a similar situation last year, on a regular basis cause the work was just too much and i kept on procrastinating. it is totally okay to feel overwhelmed rn, life can build up intensity pretty fast without even us knowing. take it slow, recollect your mind and start focusing on the tasks, one by one. don't worry about how's it gonna go, just make sure you do your best and i'm pretty sure you'll finish much of your tasks

Thank you Sally, I hope my mind will calm down with some steam and time.

 

[cocomelon]

I want to cry, and I probably will

you should, it really helps. let it all out.

I'm reaching this point in my reality where everything is so fucking overwhelming and I can't see a future for myself. It doesn't matter how hard I try because I will always fail and I cannot possibly succeed. I am at a really really low point right now and it's fucking crushing me. I have thought about harming myself very often lately, especially when I'm driving on my way to college/work, and it's starting to scare me. I'm tired of living this life, every second is too painful. I have nothing, I am nothing, I will always be nothing. I'm so fucking tired of living this shit life. Last night I was thinking a lot about taking all the sleeping pills I have, but then I remembered I have to go to work so I can't do that.

Spoiler

its really hard at times when we feel like we're a failure and that no one would care if we were gone. but you need to understand that theres still a long life ahead of you, you can still become much more than you can imagine, you write your future, not anyone else. i know it's really overwhelming right now, but trust me, it'll pass. it has to. i know when you reach a suicidal state, it is really hard to even look at another opinion, but trust me, theres a way, you'll get over this and i'm really proud of you, managing work and school together, you're doing great, don't stop <3

 

[Ahsoka]

i wrote out a lot but I don’t know if it’s the best things to say, so I’ll just say this bit. Life has its bad moments, where you may feel grief, overwhelmed, whatever. But life also has its good moments and people, it may be hard to see that now or see how it’s relevant but overcoming the bad has its reward. Another thing is you don’t need to be perfect in everything you do. Maybe your essay won’t be the best because you have less time, or maybe your speech ends up being 3 minutes instead of 5. At the end of the day, try to be happy with what you do accomplish. I’ll be hoping the best for you, I hope you manage to feel some comfort from some source because it seems like you need someone right now. Fighting!

 

[Day]

i wrote out a lot but I don’t know if it’s the best things to say, so I’ll just say this bit. Life has its bad moments, where you may feel grief, overwhelmed, whatever. But life also has its good moments and people, it may be hard to see that now or see how it’s relevant but overcoming the bad has its reward. Another thing is you don’t need to be perfect in everything you do. Maybe your essay won’t be the best because you have less time, or maybe your speech ends up being 3 minutes instead of 5. At the end of the day, try to be happy with what you do accomplish. I’ll be hoping the best for you, I hope you manage to feel some comfort from some source because it seems like you need someone right now. Fighting!

Thank you for your kind words Vikki

 

[Day]

you should, it really helps. let it all out.

Spoiler

its really hard at times when we feel like we're a failure and that no one would care if we were gone. but you need to understand that theres still a long life ahead of you, you can still become much more than you can imagine, you write your future, not anyone else. i know it's really overwhelming right now, but trust me, it'll pass. it has to. i know when you reach a suicidal state, it is really hard to even look at another opinion, but trust me, theres a way, you'll get over this and i'm really proud of you, managing work and school together, you're doing great, don't stop <3

I respect you, friend, thank you

 

[seoriverse]

I remember feeling like that too at one point 😕 Keep pushing until better days and I can tell you will see the end of this mess soon. Take care and if you need to talk more there's surely a friend who's willing to hear you out. If that's not what you need, you can always call a mental health hotline and they'll be glad to hear you out. I wish you the best of luck.

 

[Day]

I remember feeling like that too at one point 😕 Keep pushing until better days and I can tell you will see the end of this mess soon. Take care and if you need to talk more there's surely a friend who's willing to hear you out. If that's not what you need, you can always call a mental health hotline and they'll be glad to hear you out. I wish you the best of luck.

Thank you queen, I hope this moment can quickly pass and the bad feelings will stay away

 

[ChiaraStar169]

A wise redheaded Brit whose name rhymes with "bed fearin'" once said, "It'll all be okay in the end; if it's not okay, it's not the end."

Actually, now that I think about it, that quote doesn't really sound all that encouraging... maybe you should just ignore this message, then, or at least take it with a grain of salt. lol