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[dark_tranquility]

I think we all have our demons that haunt us.
I am always socially awkward and hear and see thing
but I do not let it win.

 

[Selfmate]

the journey of 1000 li (500kms) begins with the first step

 

[kimsguardian]

you get rid of your exid albums??!! nooo
glad you're better now, trying to find a healthier solution for your solutions. just so you know that you're precious & loved by many people including me


meanwhile here i am being so active in forums & buying all gg albums i stan as my coping mechanism from my loneliness

 

[uran]

I am happy to hear you are on the road of recovery. I shall cheer you on your journey you strong absolute cutie

 

[ProudOrbit]

Nina posted the following thread updating yall about the hiatus I had for over 11 days:

Friendo update - K-Pop Source — Keeping the K-Pop Forum Spirit Alive

Exi wanted to let you guys know she's okay and fighting off some headspace demons which is tough. :sanapray: This is her own battle. Not Moonbin related. The timing could be a coincidence. Girl is strong. She's got this. Cheer her on please

kpopsource.com

I know it may come off as a shock that I had demons to deal with, as I don't talk about it that much.
Today, I'll give you some context.
I've struggled with severe yet chronic depression and anxiety since 7 years ago and was medically diagnosed in my first year of university in 2018.
Long story short, dealing with this has been a painful life, and I feel guilty over trauma dumping too much on people.
I didn't want yall to worry about something that only I could deal with, as I've lost my best friend that way ( she's not dead, we drifted apart so badly ).
I've made progress in the past half-decade, but Moonbin's death made me realize something my mind tried its utmost to deny.
I said I was okay, but I've been letting my depression pile up rather than dealing with it.
The frayed fabric keeping me whole had ripped, and my condition consumed me for a few days.
All I could feel was misery, and my tear-filled days reflected that.
As the misery and days passed, all that remained was a realization that I needed help.
I need therapy. I can't handle my condition by myself anymore. I need to stop numbing myself by getting addicted to shit like coffee, album buying, etc.
I need to work on my depression and develop healthier coping mechanisms.

With this realization, I've reflected on life and its current state.
I'm selling off all the stuff I bought on the impulse that they would make me feel better, but in the end, they never did.
I've decided to get rid of most of my EXID albums and only keep the important ones like Solji's Solo album and X.
I'm doing this to remove some of the past that haunts me when I enter my room.

It's a long road to dealing with this better, but I assure yall I won't give up.
Thank you all

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I cant imagine how hard this must be for you
Stay strong Exi we are always here for you <3

 

[Soogi]

you're stronger than your demons and we're all super proud of u for taking your life back into your own hands one step at a time <3 sending u lots of love cutie exi

 

[Magician]

Take care Exi, you are doing great!!
Stay healthy and happy

 

[badcrookshanks]

Exi hwaiting

 

[lily]

I wish the best for you While my anxiety isn't bad, I have mild social anxiety. It came during COVID pandemic and never went away. Really appreciate you being friendly to me whenever I come here <3.

 

[Exi]

I'm wishing for the best for you Exi <3. You can do it!

i hope one day you can fully overcome your issues and you live a peaceful life
u got this 🫀

May you get the help you need <3

were with you every step of the way i hope you know im really glad I met you when I first joined i remember you were a person I really wanted to talk to so im really grateful for all the threads you made thank you for being my friend <3

awwwwwww I also suffer from clinical depression, so if you need to talk, I'm here!

We’re routing for you always Exi. Sending you lots of love and best wishes. ♥

You’ve got this, Exi! I believe in you, I know you can do it!

I hope you can get the help you are looking for!

Glad you are back!

Stay strong Exi, you are so brave for seeking help, I know it can be difficult, but u got this sis


I'm so proud of u

I am wishing you the best. I know you will continue to be strong.

You got this! We’re always here for you, no matter what.

Sending you well wishes and love, Exi <3

we're always here for you exi 🤍

Hoping for better days. As someone with clinical chronic depression & anxiety I know things can really pile up in the back of your mind. It's there we just don't think about it until something makes us snap. Losing Moonbin also had a great effect on me.

I know I can't do much but I'm here cheering you on <<3

Thats right Exi
When the toughest days come, we sometimes need time for realization and take a break away from things we have done
Even after the rain, there's sunshine
Im happy to see you slowly recover, it isnt easy and even opening up to a situation like this
Remember even if we cant be in person, we love you from a distance!

I think we all have our demons that haunt us.
I am always socially awkward and hear and see thing
but I do not let it win.

the journey of 1000 li (500kms) begins with the first step

you get rid of your exid albums??!! nooo
glad you're better now, trying to find a healthier solution for your solutions. just so you know that you're precious & loved by many people including me


meanwhile here i am being so active in forums & buying all gg albums i stan as my coping mechanism from my loneliness

not all of them lol, ill keep the ones im hella sentimental about though ^_^

I am happy to hear you are on the road of recovery. I shall cheer you on your journey you strong absolute cutie

I cant imagine how hard this must be for you
Stay strong Exi we are always here for you <3

you're stronger than your demons and we're all super proud of u for taking your life back into your own hands one step at a time <3 sending u lots of love cutie exi

Take care Exi, you are doing great!!
Stay healthy and happy

Exi hwaiting

I wish the best for you While my anxiety isn't bad, I have mild social anxiety. It came during COVID pandemic and never went away. Really appreciate you being friendly to me whenever I come here <3.

Thank you all

 

[Moguri]

you get rid of your exid albums??!! nooo
glad you're better now, trying to find a healthier solution for your solutions. just so you know that you're precious & loved by many people including me


meanwhile here i am being so active in forums & buying all gg albums i stan as my coping mechanism from my loneliness

aww oh no