Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (10 Viewers)

[Angelyna_Frost]

Love saved my life, even if it's temporary, it saves me everytime.

Don't feel bad about that being your "only" strenght when it's the most powerful thing a human being can possess

I feel real love for them- that part is seamless for me. The problem is more complex, in that I know they are struggling and I'm not. I have bills to pay and stresses like anyone else but I'm basically content (sometimes really happy too) when I wake up each day. And that is a difficult situation to resolve when they clearly are not.

 

[Eden]

I feel real love for them- that part is seamless for me

That's all that matters, they should be able to feel this, if not then you are lying.

Really, take this from an ex self-destructive person, love is the only reason I'm still here now, and doing better.

 

[Koala]

My only strength that I have to give them is love- that's all I know. I hope it's enough because I worry so much about saying the wrong thing that sometimes I wanna run. However, the one thing I do NOT do is abandon anyone, especially if they are hurting.

It’s more than enough when you show you care when they confess they have it. Most are abanonded because of the stigma people hold it against them thinking they’ll go off,or just sound down. They really just need to know you’re there when they get the random attack from either disorder. That’s a huge medicinal dose for someone.
Understanding even if you don’t go through it. That you’re willing to be there for them. And slowly understand them. c: you’re doing enough as is wanting to learn how to. Don’t worry. You’re doing great. When I had my anxiety attack,my bestfriend talked to me and told me to hold my body down and apply pressure and told me to read his words and listen to his voice. Anxiety can detach you from life and plac you in a dark place where you’ll shake. Just talk to them and tell them to breathe and how you’re there. Depression is feeling hopeless and like no one cares. So be the one who does c: you’re doing great just wanting to know. Company and social helps. Care nurtures them through pain. Don’t worry!

 

[Deleted member 74]

Today,I decided to go back to the doctors and take medication for my anxiety. And go back for more checks up.
I’m wanting to work on myself more. I’m hoping one day I can live with myself and actually love my mind. Even though I’m always scared of medication even though I’ve been on 15 pills at once..I’m always scared of side effects if it’ll take me back

I hope everything will turn out well It's not easy, but it's important that you want to help yourself more so the outcome of everything will be worth the hardships you face in the present~

 

[jasque]

Sometimes its so difficult trusting people...

But what is there to lose anyway

We are all on our own in the end

We are a pile of replaceables

Yeah im definitely getting old...

 

[jasque]

Stan jaden

 

[Koala]

Sometimes its so difficult trusting people...

But what is there to lose anyway

We are all on our own in the end

We are a pile of replaceables

Yeah im definitely getting old...

Trusting is a valuable thing that won’t always happen to all. It’s only some who are made to fit to us for us to be trusted. It takes time. However,you are not replaceable because each person is always irreplaceable to someone else. You’re someone great c: someone that if others lost then they’re missing out. Even when you’re hurting you try to be postive,but know days will make you down. You’ll fight the next day,and then someone will slowly come into your life.

Just know you aren’t alone. You’ll never be fully alone. And even if you are. Then I’ll be here xd. Even when I’m alone. You’re great.
Keep your chin up
It’s platnium,and not even gold. It’s something worth more and valuable. You’ll always be one of a kind c: never of the same kind

 

[jasque]

Trusting is a valuable thing that won’t always happen to all. It’s only some who are made to fit to us for us to be trusted. It takes time. However,you are not replaceable because each person is always irreplaceable to someone else. You’re someone great c: someone that if others lost then they’re missing out. Even when you’re hurting you try to be postive,but know days will make you down. You’ll fight the next day,and then someone will slowly come into your life.

Just know you aren’t alone. You’ll never be fully alone. And even if you are. Then I’ll be here xd. Even when I’m alone. You’re great.
Keep your chin up
It’s platnium,and not even gold. It’s something worth more and valuable. You’ll always be one of a kind c: never of the same kind

Its just that... Its goes on so slowly lol

But i think we ll get there

 

[Lovely_Cornchips]

It's literally nonstop.

Like I'm fine one second and then the next my lungs and heart feel swollen. Stuffed with too much and I can't fucking get rid of that "too much" it just sits there and morphs into more doubt, more hatred, more fear, more anxiety. I always think it's fucking gone but then it just fucking comes back. I should have seen it coming, anytime I'm doing good shit hits the fan out of the blue.

I mean I'm barely eating and when I do eat it's not proper eating.
I barely take care of my hygiene.
I ignore my studies.
I haven't even written creatively at all today.
I argued and fought and I thought I was fine after it.
I thought screaming and shouting and saying how I feel would fix it but I'm still here.

I'm probably going to fall asleep at 4 AM again. Go fail another exam. Have another break that isn't really a break because my emotions and my fucking head and fucking heart won't leave me the fuck alone.

I want to stop fucking doubting everyone and everything but it's so fucking hard when you've been fucked in the head and heart so many fucking times that it gets hard to tell if you are even ok anymore. I realized how alone I am tonight.

Yeah, I can talk to people and they can listen. But I'm truly alone. It will always be that way. I just need to accept that and stop trying to act like I can wholeheartedly rely on others because in all honesty, I can't.

 

[Wicked]

Spoiler

Lol. I'm such a flop. Sometimes it feels like I'm an outsider in the social groups around these forums.

 

[Koala]

Just because you don’t cry easily doesn’t mean you’re any less of someone who shows their pain. You always held it in,and I’m glad you’re getting help for it. Even if this doesn’t work for a bit you will find someone who can connect and truly wants to help. I’m proud of you wanting to take a step forward and getting help. They’ll be able to pick up on your pain. You don’t need to be good at explaining it because their job is to see what’s wrong. Don’t worry about it all because you will get help. We’lol help you here,and they’ll help you around you. There’s nothing wrong with not being able to convey your emotions into words,or not being able to feel because I understand it a lot. You’re just nervous I feel because you feel it won’t help you. It all takes baby steps. Take them slowly and you’d be amazed at how much can unlock to help you in the long journey ahead. I’m proud of you Vi vi. Just breathe,and know you’re taking a small step towards something that may change all for the better.

 

[Icy68446]

Sometimes its so difficult trusting people...

But what is there to lose anyway

We are all on our own in the end

We are a pile of replaceables

Yeah im definitely getting old...

It is true that no one will ever completely understand how someone else feels, but that doesn't mean that you're alone~

 

[Icy68446]

It's literally nonstop.

Like I'm fine one second and then the next my lungs and heart feel swollen. Stuffed with too much and I can't fucking get rid of that "too much" it just sits there and morphs into more doubt, more hatred, more fear, more anxiety. I always think it's fucking gone but then it just fucking comes back. I should have seen it coming, anytime I'm doing good shit hits the fan out of the blue.

I mean I'm barely eating and when I do eat it's not proper eating.
I barely take care of my hygiene.
I ignore my studies.
I haven't even written creatively at all today.
I argued and fought and I thought I was fine after it.
I thought screaming and shouting and saying how I feel would fix it but I'm still here.

I'm probably going to fall asleep at 4 AM again. Go fail another exam. Have another break that isn't really a break because my emotions and my fucking head and fucking heart won't leave me the fuck alone.

I want to stop fucking doubting everyone and everything but it's so fucking hard when you've been fucked in the head and heart so many fucking times that it gets hard to tell if you are even ok anymore. I realized how alone I am tonight.

Yeah, I can talk to people and they can listen. But I'm truly alone. It will always be that way. I just need to accept that and stop trying to act like I can wholeheartedly rely on others because in all honesty, I can't.

Have you made that phone call to schedule an appointment yet? It's okay if you haven't~ It's hard to feel this way and have it switch back and forth from being fine to being a complete mess, yet even when you're "fine" it's still hard to do literally anything, I get it. Sometimes it would just be better to escape for a week or so. Just sleep forever so you don't have to be conscious since it's hard to stand it. It's okay to rely on others but the taking the first step is our job, even if it's hard. Just know that people are here to support you and we all do care about you even if you feel alone.

 

[Icy68446]

Oh my god I hate that feeling where you want to cry but you can't. It's like there's a rock in your chest and you can't breathe. There's no good way to describe it sometimes. Their job is to help counsel you, and you're not making their job any harder for them. Everything you feel is valid, it's okay to feel this way. II hope you can feel better soon too. Take care of yourself, eat and drink enough and do take naps and sleep if you feel like it~ We're here for you too c:

 

[Lovely_Cornchips]

Have you made that phone call to schedule an appointment yet? It's okay if you haven't~ It's hard to feel this way and have it switch back and forth from being fine to being a complete mess, yet even when you're "fine" it's still hard to do literally anything, I get it. Sometimes it would just be better to escape for a week or so. Just sleep forever so you don't have to be conscious since it's hard to stand it. It's okay to rely on others but the taking the first step is our job, even if it's hard. Just know that people are here to support you and we all do care about you even if you feel alone.

I did but the process is taking a long time. It's been about two months since I did it and they haven't called me back yet, it doesn't help that people from AKP have decided to come and harass me and bring their shit from AKP over here in my anon.

 

[lexus]

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I can try to act cheery all I want but I know I'm living so I don't cause pain to my family, who are more important to me than myself. I'm far beyond even seeing one good thing about myself, there is really nothing I can say. I don't know what I want, because I wake up wishing I was never born in the first place everyday and go through my days laughing at small things. I never really minded being that person who people just look at when they need something. When you called me a few days ago, all I could think of was how much it hurt that you were only calling me to tell me your problems. I'm not even that second place person who wants to be first place, I'm always that last resort and in the past, I welcomed the idea of being someone to comfort others. I still do but the thought is in the back of my mind, I want to cry. I feel so lonely. I want to be hugged. I want that someone too, it's ironic that I hate myself but am looking for someone just like me. I settled for being that person because I knew I'd never be normal. I'm just nice Bina. Good advice Bina. Happy Bina. Tryhard Bina. Fake Bina. Cold Bina. I'll never shine in any kind of way because I'm not beautiful, I'm not smart, I'm hard to be close with, I'm distant, I'm nothing special. I'm that person on the sideline who is too focused on wanting to jump in the water instead of admiring the view and it hurts that this isn't even a metaphor, it's actually how I feel everytime I'm given the opportunity to see how I can potentially kill myself. Whether I'm with people or by myself, this doesn't stop. Whether it's a good day or a bad day, at the end of the day when everyone's asleep I cry all of a sudden because none of the happiness I pretend to have is real. No matter how many appointments I've gone to, all I do is get blamed for how I feel. No one knows how I feel. My life isn't hard, I'm just so tiring to live with. I don't even deserve my life. I wish I never existed.

Spoiler

I'm sorry that you're going through all of this. You don't deserve to feel this way. It's ridiculous that you're getting blamed for how you feel. No one has complete control over their emotions. Sometimes we feel happy, other times we feel distraught. Feelings always come and go. I just want you to remember that you won't feel this way forever. I know that it's hard to believe, but things really do get better. It just takes a lot of time. You deserve to have a happy and successful life no matter what. I hope you can find another doctor or therapist that doesn't blame you for how you feel. They shouldn't make you feel worse than you already do. Good luck with everything.

 

[lexus]

Spoiler

In January I start going to a new school again. I'm excited, but I'm also pretty nervous for it. If you don't know this about me, I'm agoraphobic and I have Panic Disorder. (Look it up if you need to.) Basically I get panic attacks when I'm in crowded public places or when I travel to far from home. My new school is a lot closer to my house than my current school which 30 minutes away. Around two summers ago I had a problem where I was getting panic attacks almost daily and it got to the point where I couldn't leave my neighborhood for 4 months. I've made a lot of progress since then, however my anxiety is still pretty bad and I still had do most of my classes online. I also don't go into public places that often. I can go to therapy and the dollar store, but those still give me anxiety. I was able to go attend a class on campus last semester, but it was very difficult. I missed a lot of the classes and sometimes we'd drive to the school and I would be too scared to go into it. I'm afraid of it happening again. Next semester I am probably going to take 4 classes. My new school doesn't offer a lot of classes online so I'm gonna have to attend classes on campus no matter what. The problem with that is I can only stay in a public setting for so long. After an hour I start to get anxious and I'm ready to go home. Staying at school for 2-3 hours sounds like a nightmare to me. I'm hoping that I'm not making a mistake by enrolling into this school. I know it sounds stupid, but it's still making me anxious. It's only two months away and I have a lot of work to do. I've been practicing driving there with my mom, but I still get pretty anxious when we drive there. It's only 10 minutes away from where I live and it's still hard to get there without any anxiety. I just don't want another repeat of what happened last semester. I hate this. I really want to attend this school because it feels like I'll have another chance to make new friends and maybe a cute boy. I hate not having any real life friends. I haven't had any since 8th grade, but I feel like no one would want to be my friend because I can't just go out and do normal things such as going out to eat, shopping, the movies, etc. I feel lonely a lot of the time because I don't have any real life friends. I'm trying my best not to get my hopes up for next semester. I don't want to doubt myself, but I don't want to set my expectations to high either because I'll end up being disappointed again....

 

[blueberries]

(ง •̀_•́)ง hwaiting!

 

[Soleski]

I have sad days and I don't know what to do. I have no free time and even if I have a little I am doing nothing. I am not reading anymore, I don't watch tv series or animes. I don't write fictions or continue my book I have been wrinting for years. It's scary, because I don't know why I don't care about these anymore. I am in a state when I started to care about nothing and it's not really a good thing, I wasn't like this before. My best friend wants to help me so badly, but it just makes me angry so much for no reason. I love her and know her for 14 years, but this is something in me she cannot understand because even I can't understand.

I appreciate anyone who read this, but pls don't reply. I really just wanted to write this down. Thank you! (if you have the same problem though we can talk, feel free to write me anytime)

 

[Soleski]

Spoiler

In January I start going to a new school again. I'm excited, but I'm also pretty nervous for it. If you don't know this about me, I'm agoraphobic and I have Panic Disorder. (Look it up if you need to.) Basically I get panic attacks when I'm in crowded public places or when I travel to far from home. My new school is a lot closer to my house than my current school which 30 minutes away. Around two summers ago I had a problem where I was getting panic attacks almost daily and it got to the point where I couldn't leave my neighborhood for 4 months. I've made a lot of progress since then, however my anxiety is still pretty bad and I still had do most of my classes online. I also don't go into public places that often. I can go to therapy and the dollar store, but those still give me anxiety. I was able to go attend a class on campus last semester, but it was very difficult. I missed a lot of the classes and sometimes we'd drive to the school and I would be too scared to go into it. I'm afraid of it happening again. Next semester I am probably going to take 4 classes. My new school doesn't offer a lot of classes online so I'm gonna have to attend classes on campus no matter what. The problem with that is I can only stay in a public setting for so long. After an hour I start to get anxious and I'm ready to go home. Staying at school for 2-3 hours sounds like a nightmare to me. I'm hoping that I'm not making a mistake by enrolling into this school. I know it sounds stupid, but it's still making me anxious. It's only two months away and I have a lot of work to do. I've been practicing driving there with my mom, but I still get pretty anxious when we drive there. It's only 10 minutes away from where I live and it's still hard to get there without any anxiety. I just don't want another repeat of what happened last semester. I hate this. I really want to attend this school because it feels like I'll have another chance to make new friends and maybe a cute boy. I hate not having any real life friends. I haven't had any since 8th grade, but I feel like no one would want to be my friend because I can't just go out and do normal things such as going out to eat, shopping, the movies, etc. I feel lonely a lot of the time because I don't have any real life friends. I'm trying my best not to get my hopes up for next semester. I don't want to doubt myself, but I don't want to set my expectations to high either because I'll end up being disappointed again....

Good luck to you! Don't give up <3 I really hope everything is gonna be okay.