Sensitive My mental health journey through songs (3 Viewers)

[iridescentopal]

Hi everyone.

I would like to talk about my mental health a little. Here are some songs I can relate to within the past few years and a explanation of why. This includes wrapped, and other songs that are non-wrapped.

So Spotify doesn't make me feel more depressed/re-traumatise me with these wrapped playlists.


2024 Playlist.

Novocaine by Connor Kauffman. I have felt a big butterfly effect in my life, and live with OCD.

Fourth of July by Sufjan Stevens. I relate this song to the characters Athelstan and Gyda in Vikings. I love their friendship <3 She shows kindness to him, she is his little dragonfly.

Paper Crown by Alec Benjamin. His delicate sensitive voice helps me understand a bit more of the hurt and pain and violence around me, to say what I feel and think.

meant to be by Jared Benjamin. He talks about his childhood and his identity, which I can relate with. Am I good enough, am I a monster?


2022 Playlist.

My Body is a Cage by Peter Gabriel. I was disassociating a lot, and could relate to Max Vandenburg from The Book Thief.

The Hunter by the Seaside Window by Alex Henry Foster. I was really scared of a community from my past that hurt me, and the trauma rapidly came back, and I felt they were the hunter.

Stay Alive by Jungkook. I feel like him and BTS were scared for me, and to stay alive.

Live Like We Want To by Palaye Royale. This band says I am loved, as I love them. I was in a maze, and they tried to talk to me.

Man or a Monster by Sam Tinnesz. I was very confused on who I was.

Mansion by NF. I felt like the girl Edith in Crimson Peak, when she is holding a candelabra and walking around the house.

Conspiracy of Silence by The Swoons. I was singing this song out loud to myself, as I thought the community could hear me in that year. I felt very haunted.

 

[iridescentopal]

I'll write my thoughts on songs in new post(s), I think.

You all can post here if you like (:

 

[sooya_]

I don't know all these songs but wow, I like how u added what the songs meant to u :o :)

 

[uran]

Music is truly a good way to explore your feelings and mental health. I am glad youve found these songs to give you strenght, understanding and power

 

[iridescentopal]

Thank you, sooya and uran! :)

I actually wanted to write more in depth about what the songs mean to me, yet thought to keep it short for the introduction. xD

Don't Let Me Go by The Click Five. This takes me back to high school, where I loved all these indie bands. This song was released in 2011, when I was in Year 12. I felt I made friends there in high school in MSN, Facebook, in school, and school retreats / camps. He has a blindfold around his eyes, and talks with a soft voice. He is saying for me to have courage to speak in the scars written in my body. I see his lips against his blindfold in his face.

Window Pains by Arrested Youth. Here, I feel like Luke Crain from Haunting of Hill House. He is drinking tea or water, while seeing the rain pour down from his car window. He is a drug addict, and he feels haunted.

Pocket Full of Promises by Matthew's Silent Chapter. I feel this song is about a troubled youth who wears black clothes. White feathers are falling around him. He has had his heart broken. His eyes are closed, and he looks wistful.

Master of Strings by Sablethorn. He is a cruel prince in the video visual. A puppeteer says, if the puppet feels controlled. As he holds the strings in his fingers.

I Own the Fire by Viper & Rose. This conceptual visual sings about a villain and a girl. She tries to deny he is evil, and she realises he is actually evil, and he is crading her cheek.

 

[ChiaraStar169]

Thank you, sooya and uran! :)

I actually wanted to write more in depth about what the songs mean to me, yet thought to keep it short for the introduction. xD

Don't Let Me Go by The Click Five. This takes me back to high school, where I loved all these indie bands. This song was released in 2011, when I was in Year 12. I felt I made friends there in high school in MSN, Facebook, in school, and school retreats / camps. He has a blindfold around his eyes, and talks with a soft voice. He is saying for me to have courage to speak in the scars written in my body. I see his lips against his blindfold in his face.

Cute Without the E (Cut from the Team) by Johnnie Guilbert. He is talking about how traumatised I felt, and the worry about what people will think. Please know that even though I used to like and listen to him a lot, I do not want anything to do with him personally. He hurt me a lot. I just recognised his face and singing from horrifying brain and body damage, and he hurt me again and again.

Window Pains by Arrested Youth. Here, I feel like Luke Crain from Haunting of Hill House. He is drinking tea or water, while seeing the rain pour down from his car window. He is a drug addict, and he feels haunted.

Pocket Full of Promises by Matthew's Silent Chapter. I feel this song is about a troubled youth who wears black clothes. White feathers are falling around him. He has had his heart broken. His eyes are closed, and he looks wistful.

Master of Strings by Sablethorn. He is a cruel prince in the video visual. A puppeteer says, if the puppet feels controlled. As he holds the strings in his fingers.

I Own the Fire by Viper & Rose. This conceptual visual sings about a villain and a girl. She tries to deny he is evil, and she realises he is actually evil, and he is crading her cheek.

whoa! TC5 was a shocker - I do still wonder what the members are up to, but I haven't heard them mentioned as a group since they broke up! were you on their official forums back in the day, by any chance? I don't remember many of my usernames, but I do remember one time I set it as StePHanie bc when I met them, Joey had asked me if my name was spelled with a PH or an F. I wanted to poke fun of that by making it my username.

 

[Pirioca]

Maybe you can relate to Citizen Soldier too?

Let It Burn: The Story of Citizen Soldier - Provo Music Magazine

"We believe that all lives are infinitely valuable."

provomusicmagazine.com

https://www.youtube.com/@CitizenSoldier/playlists

 

[Boyo]

Music is magic. I hope it gives you the strenght, power and at the same time, the calmness you need.

 

[iridescentopal]

Maybe you can relate to Citizen Soldier too?

Let It Burn: The Story of Citizen Soldier - Provo Music Magazine

"We believe that all lives are infinitely valuable."

provomusicmagazine.com

https://www.youtube.com/@CitizenSoldier/playlists

I have listened to Citizen Soldier. They are okay, I like ICU a lot. I can especially hear the pain and emotion in this song. It hits home quite a lot for me, as it talks about mental illness and hospitals, and wanting to just be myself. I like the I See You in ICU. Thank you for the recommendation!

 

[iridescentopal]

whoa! TC5 was a shocker - I do still wonder what the members are up to, but I haven't heard them mentioned as a group since they broke up! were you on their official forums back in the day, by any chance? I don't remember many of my usernames, but I do remember one time I set it as StePHanie bc when I met them, Joey had asked me if my name was spelled with a PH or an F. I wanted to poke fun of that by making it my username.

That's awesome you like The Click Five too, and that you met them! :D Were they nice in real life? No, I wasn't on their forums back then. That's a pretty funny story of your username :) Joey probably thought it was funny too :P I think most people would spell it with a PH, yet he wanted to make sure. The only person that spells it with a F that I know is Gwen Stefani xD

 

[ChiaraStar169]

That's awesome you like The Click Five too, and that you met them! :D Were they nice in real life? No, I wasn't on their forums back then. That's a pretty funny story of your username :) Joey probably thought it was funny too :P I think most people would spell it with a PH, yet he wanted to make sure. The only person that spells it with a F that I know is Gwen Stefani xD

yeah, they were all very nice, especially Kyle!

 

[dark_tranquility]

Such honesty

You have my respect


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