Sensitive My life is incomplete.. it's missing you (1 Viewer)

[Day]

It's September already.

To me, it still feels like just yesterday was June of 2025 when my life turned upside down. Countless ER visits, unpaid hospital bills, missed days of work, almost losing my job, finding out there was a mass in my brain and the nine month gap it took for me to see a doctor to determine it was non-cancerous.

A secret relationship - like the ones from the fanfics I used to read and write. One that I know will end up breaking me apart when it ends.

To the days when I woke up in the middle of the night sobbing and waking my boyfriend up freaking out because I thought I had to get out - get out of my body and mind and all the pain I've been in for so long. The early weeks of February when I thought each day would be my last. The days that I almost jumped off a bridge, but I didn't because, god damn it, I was walking through the middle of hell and I could not stop walking.

I decided that I wanted to live. I would walk through hell and make it out somehow. I will meet my friends @Nina @badcrookshanks @Exi @Boyo in real life like we had talked about.

My world has not come to an end. Time keeps moving forward. I start a new job next week.

I can't help but find myself drawn back to Missing You... a song that means the world to me, that I relate to, that feels all the emotions I want to express and that screams with all the heartache I've been carrying for so long.


I just popped in to say hi to everyone again. I miss interacting with a lot of the friends I made here. I wish everyone good health, happiness, and I hope that you as individuals can become the version of yourself that you always dreamed. Right now, I'm fighting a lot of inner demons within myself because change is scary. Being hurt is scary. The world I now live in is scary. And it freaking sucks.

If anyone has any questions, I'll try to come back and reply. I miss you all!

 

[ani07]

thank you for being alive

 

[centen]

Wishing only good things for you and better days ahead. I'm glad you're still here.

 

[Day]

thank you for being alive

Wishing only good things for you and better days ahead. I'm glad you're still here.

thank you guys so much, I'm going to try to be active again!

 

[Abeamus]

I hope you are doing well too Day and life is certainly scary but I use that as motivation to cherish those I care about and try to make sure they feel they are important to me since especially those who might struggle with feeling they deserve to feel important

 

[LoveYooShaSha]

Glad to hear from u Daiisy Day; sorry to hear things hv been dire for so long(after reading ur previoys post about ur diagnosis/health situation idek when/how long ago it was)

hope ur new job goes well. i dont even know wat else to say rn.

 

[athenaaa]

Really glad to hear from you! Here is to better times and hope things begin to look up from here. Sorry you had to go through all that, I can only imagine how scary that must have been.

 

[Nina]

You're gonna kick ass, I know it

 

[Selfmate]

'sup my friend

 

[Boyo]

I am at a loss for words. The only thing keeping me from crying right now is my colleague sitting across.
Honestly, I was really worried that something bad happened to you. I just hoped that my gut feeling was wrong and that you simply needed some time and space. I’m so sorry for everything you’ve had to go through. Let me say that I’m incredibly proud of you for not giving up and for choosing to keep fighting. That takes so much strength.
I’m wishing you all the best with your new job and more than anything, I hope that life will be kind to you.

 

[uran]

Day is loved, day is important and day matters
I truly wish for your happiness my dear
You can fight it and youve done amazingly badass job in fighting your mental health already. You can do it!

 

[x_x]

you're incredibly strong, hoping the best and nothing but love and hope for your future.

 

[badcrookshanks]

I'm so glad you are doing okay. Don't ever hesitate to reach out if you want someone to talk to