What‘s your inner saboteur? (1 Viewer)

[yeji]

Definitely not inspired by something always Ru'Paul says

Spoiler: deep thoughts

Well where do I beging with my own inner saboteur? I guess my shy nature prevented me from things. I also get to attached to people and let them come too close to my heart and emotions which in turn is hurting me. My emphatic self ( tho I love it and wouldn’t want to change how much I feel for people etc) is not good with certain people since they are basically like energy vampires that just try to get something out of a connection for their own pleasure and good. I met a ton of those in my real life and I guess due to how I am those kinds get attracted to me or my energy.

What would be your inner saboteur? Do you think it‘s important to keep these things in your mind?​

 

[VillageIdiot]

I have a tendency to diminish myself to accommodate everyone else. I don't always do or say what I should and get walked over as a result. It gets to the point where I get anxiety worrying about everyone and accepting I just probably won't ever be happy

Also I'm lazy

 

[kodoku]

I believe I am less than others in some ways, I allow others to abuse my kidnness, I give away all of me and don't get much in return which tires me out all the time yet I keep doing it because I yearn for the love that's always out of my reach..

 

[Darkseid]

I have a tendency to diminish myself to accommodate everyone else. I don't always do or say what I should and get walked over as a result. It gets to the point where I get anxiety worrying about everyone and accepting I just probably won't ever be happy

Also I'm lazy

It's like we're the same person lmao.

 

[yeji]

I have a tendency to diminish myself to accommodate everyone else. I don't always do or say what I should and get walked over as a result. It gets to the point where I get anxiety worrying about everyone and accepting I just probably won't ever be happy

Also I'm lazy

It's like we're the same person lmao.

I am sure happiness will happen for both of you. You two are wonderful people and would deserve the best.

 

[yeji]

I believe I am less than others in some ways, I allow others to abuse my kidnness, I give away all of me and don't get much in return which tires me out all the time yet I keep doing it because I yearn for the love that's always out of my reach..

totally get you

 

[kodoku]

totally get you

be my friend <3

 

[yeji]

be my friend <3

of course I would want to be your friend

 

[kodoku]

of course I would want to be your friend

yayyy <33

 

[AnotherKpopTrash]

I have a tendency to diminish myself to accommodate everyone else. I don't always do or say what I should and get walked over as a result. It gets to the point where I get anxiety worrying about everyone and accepting I just probably won't ever be happy

Also I'm lazy

Very relatable

Sometimes it feels like I'm trying hard to accommodate everyone, but I somehow end up getting shut out myself.

 

[LadyXim]

TBH I had actually spent the past few days thinking back over all my hurts and relationships and interactions and moods etc I think I found and overcame my inner sabateur. I dumped it in the trash this morning

How can i put it in words...

I guess you could call it naivete or just being too dumb to see what was going on around me and how I was feeding into it.

I always gave chances even though I wasn't receiving chances from others. I was fair to people who weren't fair to me. I viewed people favorably who looked down on me for demographic reasons or for my appearance etc. I opened up to people who didnt care or who just went on to spread my business all around. I was honest with people who didn't deserve honesty. I let people use me as an emotional dildo, but no one was there for me. When I was down all I got was ignored or some brushoff tough love 'stand on your own two feet speech.' I tolerated when I wasn't receiving tolerance. I cared when nobody else did. I fell in love with bad men who treated me like trash or viewed me and treated me as inferior to other women. Then when I realized all of that, I let it break me. People always told me everything was my fault and I believed them, and after they broke me I blamed myself. Then I punished myself. Just like they wanted.

I wanted to be better than the people I saw around me who put people in classes, ranking some above others, and would only be nice to certain types of people or to people who were just like them. I wanted to be the kind of person who was nice, friendly open and trustworthy to everyone but I did not realize the kind of danger that entailed. I didn't realize I was setting myself up. If you let everyone in indiscriminantly you're just gonna get users and people who will take everything you got and leave nothing.

From now on I think my approach to all types of socialization is going to be VERY different. I am now 100% in control. Nothing is gonna happen that I dont want happening, blame is gonna rest where it truly belongs, and no one's gonna be in my life that doesn't belong here, and I can guarantee you that

 

[perhapz]

I always think that I'm not good enough, that I'm not capable enough, this makes me doubt myself a lot

 

[jasque]

Vampires are sexy

 

[yeji]

Vampires are sexy

yes they are