today this older lady I am friends with, whom I adore and respect so much, someone similar to me in many ways despite the huge age gap...... well she teared up thinking of me and sharing thoughts about what I should do, she said I'm such a smart girl and that I understand everything from a psychological aspect..... that she feels like crying because she understands my pain so well...... and she even said she's sorry if she hurt me or sounded harsh but I was only thankful because her words came from a place of sincere love and wishing better for me, something very refreshing compared to all the people only looking at what they can take from me....