Sensitive Do you beat yourself up often? (2 Viewers)

[lexus]

Not physically, obviously, but mentally. Like putting yourself down constantly? (If that makes sense) I used to do it quit a lot, and I mean a lot.

Over time I've tried not to do it nearly as much and I try to be a bit nicer to myself. But right now I'm trying not to give myself a hard time over something that I didn't do, but I should've summoned up the courage and made myself do it anyway.

Anyways, is there something that you do when you go through things like this? What do you do to be nicer to yourself?

 

[nyaajooe]

no, or i don't recognize that i do it

 

[lotusflower]

Well, I do sometimes when I get disappointed in myself. I usually try to think positive thoughts and look on the more positive side of things. I go to my mom for advice if I'm feeling too down.

 

[ADORA]

Yes and I do it on purpose because I can't seem to express my feelings so I make my self feel hurt so that I do feel guilt

 

[eclipsoul]

i used to but now i no longer do, actually now i am the opposite of it (and closer to doing that physically because sometimes i would wake up in the morning with random bruises on my body with no idea how i got them)

 

[Myco]

Occasionally

 

[blueberries]

Don't call me out like that

 

[bloomgyu]

yes

 

[Strawberry_Poppy]

In everyway you could think of

 

[Lovely_Cornchips]

It's on and off. I'll have some weeks where it's really fucking bad. And other weeks where I think I'm not too bad.

 

[Michael]

Not much.

 

[Tickita]

Not anymore

 

[Mew]

Not really...
It's kinda like... Oh I didn't do that right but its okay whatever.. Its kinda indifferent and lackluster with everything I do regarding myself.. Kinda like its insignificant to even bother to even insult myself (unless I'm in an irrational State of mind, or during a depression episode) so its come more as a realistic critique of both positive parts and negative parts of my abilities.

However the only time I'm hard on myself (irrationally so) is when it comes to my ability to be a parent.. If anything goes wrong with my kid I always blame myself despite even if theres evidence showing it not my fault at all.

Spoiler

like that fact that he was born with a dysplastic non functioning kidney for example. I had the textbook perfect pregnancy my kid just never developed one of his kidneys while in the womb, so I was pretty hard on myself even though I was doing everything I was suppose to, those thing just happen no one was to blame really, he got it removed when he was 3, it was the most daunting thing for me. Despite every it not a noticable thing and has no affect at all on him to be, he just has one kidney, it's an interesting fact he likes to tell people though. But like I honestly worried so much about it caused my blood pressure to go up a few times

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I worry about everything when it comes to him, it just hard to tell with cause I'm so controlled and calm about everything. I process through my irrational thoughts quicker and do what I need to do.