To just randomly disappear and ghost everybody for literally no reason? No? Well I do. On here. Right now. Maybe I’m just drained, I feel tired of interacting ig
This always happens lol, this is why I’m so behind
i can relate to this
but not to the same extent
i sometimes have had thoughts of ghosting all of my irl friends cause i felt like i didnt deserve to be around them
i was so worried that id hurt them (emotionally and mentally) and ruin a good friendship, cause i did it once and it was by my own hand and i would torture myself every night since they called me out on it, they did what they had to do and not talk to me anymore
i felt as if i didn't deserve anything good and i expected all the bad things to come my way and i felt like it was right for me to punish myself (mentally, not physically) so that way i wouldnt forget how i screwed it up
the last thing i wanna do if loose the amazing group of friends i have now and just be alone
but if i some how end up alone then i woudnt be too surprised, i wouldnt run the risk of screwing up anything and then i can just cry in silince