do you like celebrating your birthday? (2 Viewers)

[livelocked]

we tend to think of birthdays as an exciting occasion for the person in question, but i know there are lots of people who are indifferent, have complicated feelings towards it, or just plain dislike it how do you guys feel about spending your special day??

 

[livelocked]

i wouldn't say i have any negative attitudes towards it, and do try to enjoy it the best i can, but i think my feelings just tend to be more indifferent/indistinct? idk, if anything my primary emotion is nervousness towards the idea of getting "older"/being very aware of my age, but tbh that's moreso in the period leading up to it rather than the day itself

Spoiler

this year feels especially weird for me somehow? for previous birthdays i wouldn't really "feel"/internally think of myself as that age until some time after the fact, but this year i feel like i've been considering myself as a 20yo for months already just having a strange time grappling with my sense of age

 

[HugeBakkaeMotae]

I've not celebrated my birthday for more years than I can remember and I probably prefer it that way, it's not that I wouldn't like a day that I'm shown some appreciation but I feel like the responsibilities and expectations outweigh the positive.

Anything I want I can easily buy for myself so when I'm given a gift I only feel like I'm given the responsibility to reciprocate and I have a hard time coming up with ideas for a single person not to mention everyone I know. It is also because most people I've known only knew to spend money on things which seems like a burden - and there's no point if we're both doing it only because we have to.
I would have appreciated something from the heart, anything from a backrub to something they made - but I never received something like that and it wouldn't be meaningful if I had to ask. (Of course I mention how I feel about it but I leave the resolution to them)

Beyond gifts I've never liked being the center of attention and I feel uncomfortable making a whole day about myself, I'd rather be appreciated for valuable actions that I take than for simply being born.

I'd be lying if I said there wasn't a part of me who wants someone to see right through me and just celebrate me anyway, because they want to and I doth protest much because I have no sense of entitlement - which is the biggest reason I want to discourage the expectation. If people know I want it they're going to feel like they have to do that for me and that makes me sick to my stomach.

TLDR; Mommy issues, I want to earn love rather than ask for it.

 

[x_x]

i dont do big celebrations or birthday parties, but i dont hate it.
i dont see it as a day of me getting older, because im getting older every day
birthdays had the opposite effect on me that every other day of the year did, no matter how much i disliked and disrespected myself, my birthday was the one day of the year where i was like "its my BIRTHDAY, yay!" before i went back to my regular schedule
i think moreso, the "concept" of birthdays in general is really fun to me. rather than celebrating turning one year older, its a celebration another year of life. its the only day of the year specifically for ones self, we need to go crazy we need to go silly, even if we're by ourselves and alone for our birthdays or we're with friends. its the day of YOU.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Just another day
I do not hold it as important

 

[uran]

i havent celebrated anyones birthday since i was 7 and i dont expect anyone to celebrate mine