I mean we probably all know what happened and I just prefer to believe that whatever the belief, whatever the case, he is happy and at peace. it was his life and his decision. he was a broken soul, a really intelligent guy that had inspired a lot of people including me to do better. I was that emo kid thanks to him :D, reading 1984 and hating the world, being more educated than my peers and the yadada.
it sounds cheesy but I am pretty sure he had shaped my teenagerhood quite a lot. not all my decision were good and he did not inspire the best in me, but hey things you do when you hate yourself pfff.
still manic street preachers and placebo were the groups that have played the biggest roles in my music taste and cultural upbringing.