Sensitive Don't get your child a phone (A short essay/memoir) (1 Viewer)

[kisshuhua09baby]

DISCLAIMER: Sexual exploitation of children, grooming, online sexual harassment is implied. It's in your best interest to skip on look at some of my other threads if these themes trigger or upset you






Goddamnit if no one else will say it I will
I'll tell you future Gen Z mothers right now that giving your kid too much internet time while you're not monitoring them especially if they're young will probably result in horrible people exlpoiting them. How do I know this?
Because I was that kid, dipshit. I was raised on the internet in my prepubescent years which was the worst damn thing to happen to me besides almost drowning every time I went swimming. I came across very disgusting people who did things at a time when I was too young to even know what was going on. For the next few years, I started overly sexualizing myself and eventually developed what's most referred to as hypersexuality due to this. I was even almost lured into sex work at one time. Keep in mind here I was barely 10. And go ahead and say I brought it upon myself because I was groomed into thinking this behavior was normal and that I was supposed to be like this. That wasn't the case but there was no one there stopping me or better yet pulling the computer away from the hands of 4th grade me. And the ones who should have weren't even active enough in my life to know this was going on. I'm not saying my mother was absent, not at all. But I can't say we spent a lot of time together. So it was easy for me to just go online and seek out that comfort and feeling of being loved from a random ass 40 yo white man on the internet. I probably shouldn't have had my computer as much as I did because from age 9-12, bad things just kept happening. And this was around the first little wave of the pandemic so I had nothing to do but use my computer. And all these people had succumed me into their bubble so much that despite the fact I was groomed I convinced myself that it wasn't the case, that I wasn't a victim of anything, that I was just a disgusting slut. Now I'm 14 in my 1st year of high school and I have to tell this story all over again when I tell my peers that I'm deeply afraid of men. So believe me when I say, it would hurt to wait a year to give your kid a phone

 

[DaisySkies]

over the pandemic years and even now (i'm the same age as you) i'd get on my computer and talk to people online about my fears bc i'm too embarrassed to talk about them with my family..i don't have a phone yet, but i do know that even on a computer that there are still people that are bad as well and that i should be cautious....although there were a couple times where i got brought down by people and was hurt emotionally....normally i find websites like this one and there's another one called Scratch (coding website used for school/just for fun) where i've gone and made a few friends and a lot of times...they help me get through the day because i will admit i sort of rely on them for my emotions more than i do my family....T^T

 

[dark_tranquility]

There are some truly sick people out there.

 

[kisshuhua09baby]

over the pandemic years and even now (i'm the same age as you) i'd get on my computer and talk to people online about my fears bc i'm too embarrassed to talk about them with my family..i don't have a phone yet, but i do know that even on a computer that there are still people that are bad as well and that i should be cautious....although there were a couple times where i got brought down by people and was hurt emotionally....normally i find websites like this one and there's another one called Scratch (coding website used for school/just for fun) where i've gone and made a few friends and a lot of times...they help me get through the day because i will admit i sort of rely on them for my emotions more than i do my family....T^T

yeah being on k-source has kinda made me happier bc when I have no one else to talk to I go to this forum and talk to you guys here because you're all so welcoming and understanding

 

[DaisySkies]

yeah being on k-source has kinda made me happier bc when I have no one else to talk to I go to this forum and talk to you guys here because you're all so welcoming and understanding

we'll always be here for each other on kps <33

 

[Jewel]

Since I'm older now and know these types of things I tend to look out for the younger ones. I grew up not quite on the computer socially but as far as video games and stuff yes. So, I was able to have a somewhat proper transition into the social aspect of the web. When I was young teen to early adult, I wasted my time on people I shouldn't have, and things ended in bad ways. I had that kind of worry and vulnerability as far as finding someone. I also thought I was hypersexual at one point however it was never physical with another person. I've only ever been with one person like that, and they were the first person. They pretty much ruined the whole first time being in a relationship thing for me. I fell into the questionable crowd, listened to mostly shitty/alt music that with one I really regret. That I was so stupid to get a tattoo of. ANYWAYS. Whenever someone young tells their age I urge them not to. It's dangerous. People these days are CRAZY.