.. lost your way? if so, in what way.. what mistakes have you made and why?
the more time passes and the older I grow, the more lost I become in a way.. I've improved some things, but I still lose my way easily, in some ways maybe even more easily than before. Really, I feel like I was making smarter decisions before when it comes to certain things.. I know better yet I do this, I forget my own pain so easily sometimes, feels like I forgot who I am or maybe I never learned at all.. it all comes from a place of being lost, not seeing a meanining, and being too used to pain.. sometimes I resent the people who were supposed to raise me and shape me into something better than this, sometimes I just hate and blame myself instead, I don't trust myself at all.. in any case, I hope it comes to an end soon somehow...
