Sensitive I just want to cry right now (1 Viewer)

[naevis]

Hey everyone. I try not to post threads like this because I always try my best to be cheerful and welcoming, but I just had to take a break. I am so stressed with things going on right now and I'm in a big depressive state. There's something happening that I have to go to at around 6:00 (my timezone) and I am so stressed out about it that I just want to cry. I know how bad it's going to go and how I'm going to get yelled at. I've been crying a lot recently and I have been scratching my skin as a form of self-hate and I sometimes make it bleed. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. It's just really hard to wake up every day and realize "Oh, I'm still ugly old maple." Sorry for posting a thread like this but I just really needed to vent.

 

[doll]

if you need someone to talk 2 my dms r open girl
im sorry u feel that way, i wish there was something i could do to help
also harming yourself is not an answer, it wont relieve stress or whatever you think its gonna do for you, ive been there

 

[gone4good]

Be strong hun! <3

 

[naevis]

if you need someone to talk 2 my dms r open girl
im sorry u feel that way, i wish there was something i could do to help
also harming yourself is not an answer, it wont relieve stress or whatever you think its gonna do for you, ive been there

Thank you. I know that it isn't but I'll do anything for temporary relief. I hate my skin so much that I don't care if I get scars anymore.

 

[naevis]

Be strong hun! <3

Thank you :)

 

[doll]

Thank you. I know that it isn't but I'll do anything for temporary relief. I hate my skin so much that I don't care if I get scars anymore.

i understand
i used to have the exact same mindset, but now i regret it
you've got to find a healthier coping mechanism hun
u got this 🩷.

 

[naevis]

i understand
i used to have the exact same mindset, but now i regret it
you've got to find a healthier coping mechanism hun
u got this 🩷.

Thank you :)

 

[Pirioca]

It's just really hard to wake up every day and realize "Oh, I'm still ugly old maple."

Who gave you that impression? Or is it self-evaluation?

 

[motorp77]

stay strong message me if you need to talk

 

[ChiaraStar169]

I'll DM you, but you need to find healthier ways to cope with stress. Watch an episode or two of the Powerpuff Girls. Listen to your favorite K-pop songs. Look at pics and watch videos of cute animals. Something that is NOT self-harm!

 

[MK3AM]

Hey everyone. I try not to post threads like this because I always try my best to be cheerful and welcoming, but I just had to take a break. I am so stressed with things going on right now and I'm in a big depressive state. There's something happening that I have to go to at around 6:00 (my timezone) and I am so stressed out about it that I just want to cry. I know how bad it's going to go and how I'm going to get yelled at. I've been crying a lot recently and I have been scratching my skin as a form of self-hate and I sometimes make it bleed. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. It's just really hard to wake up every day and realize "Oh, I'm still ugly old maple." Sorry for posting a thread like this but I just really needed to vent.

Im sorry but if you need anything im here hun <3

 

[Jewel]

I get you. I go thru hell myself so I know life can seem like a big joke often. Try to just surround yourself with kpop, your face snacks/sweets & the people in your life that keep you going. I hope the best for you!

 

[Selfmate]

yeah I think this is going to be slightly above KPS' paygrade

it's probably time to start talking to a professional for expert assistance...have you tried talking about such things with your parents and how everything is affecting you that it causes you to harm yourself?

 

[naevis]

Who gave you that impression? Or is it self-evaluation?

It's a little bit of both but mostly self-evaluation.

 

[naevis]

yeah I think this is going to be slightly above KPS' paygrade

it's probably time to start talking to a professional for expert assistance...have you tried talking about such things with your parents and how everything is affecting you that it causes you to harm yourself?

I don't need my parents to know and I live an hour away from them anyways so I couldn't exactly talk to them face to face since I am normally very busy. I just don't trust people anymore, it built up over time that I became this way.

 

[Selfmate]

I don't need my parents to know and I live an hour away from them anyways so I couldn't exactly talk to them face to face since I am normally very busy. I just don't trust people anymore, it built up over time that I became this way.

well in that case it's probably best that you speak to a professional then since hurting oneself and being depressed and overwhelmed doesn't seem good
I've read the above comments and whilst everyone is being supportive none of it is professional assistance to help you manage/treat those issues

 

[naevis]

well in that case it's probably best that you speak to a professional then since hurting oneself and being depressed and overwhelmed doesn't seem good
I've read the above comments and whilst everyone is being supportive none of it is professional assistance to help you manage/treat those issues

True. I don't have the social skills necessary to talk to a professional but maybe I can try someday.

 

[Selfmate]

True. I don't have the social skills necessary to talk to a professional but maybe I can try someday.

I don't know my friend - I'm not sure of your personal experiences dealing with therapists and such but the right one can be a godsend
you seem to be fine here communicating with people and obviously the first step is always the hardest to open up to someone even a professional since they are for all intensive purposes a stranger
maybe you can try some sort of online therapy help thingy even if it's not by video or whatever you can type it out??? (I have no idea how shit works lol)

 

[Sooyaabean]

Maple sweetheart I'm so sorry you feel this way. Please try and refrain from harming yourself though, it's not worth it.

I also agree with Selfmate on this that maybe you should seek professional help for your depressive episodes. I can help you with formulating an email and be there for you if the first step is what scares you

I hope you feel better Maple you deserve it

 

[Pirioca]

It's a little bit of both but mostly self-evaluation.

Self-evaluation might be complete bullshit because it depends on your feelings. If you are depressed, you tend to overestimate your weaknesses (and we all have weaknesses, nobody's perfect) while ignoring your strengths. When you are in a good mood make a list. On the left you write your alleged weaknesses, on the right you write your strengths.

Try to be as objective as possible and don't forget that weaknesses could be strengths in some situations (for example you have problems talking to other people but maybe you are a good listener instead). If a weakness could be a strength too, write it on both sides of your list. Then rethink what you wrote. Example: you have problems talking to people. But how do you know that? Did someone tell you or is it just an assumption about you, your self-image? It's quite possible that most problems on your list are subjective perception! The real problems (if there are ones) ... well, work on them. We all have our life tasks.

I went through such crap too. In my youth I had a social phobia. But I had a great psychotherapist that taught me that my fears were just a big bunch of 'Woo-woo'! So ... if you get stuck with your problems, seek professional help. You are not crazy because you go to a psychotherapist. If you think you don't have the social skills to talk to a therapist - a good therapist will help you getting those skills. All you need to do is making the first step. Remember that you are not the only person with such problems. All people that defeated their inner demons made just one first step. The rest followed.

By the way, there are hotlines where you can talk to someone professional. Maybe this could be the first step before talking to a psychotherapist personally. Do you live in the USA? I found this site:

Get Help

Using the 988 Lifeline is free. When you call, text, or chat the 988 Lifeline, your conversation is confidential. The 988 Lifeline provides you judgment-free care. Talking with someone can help save…

988lifeline.org

It seems that you can even chat with someone there. If you live in another country, there should be similar sites.