Sensitive I will never be able to go back home, I wish I was **** (1 Viewer)

[SnowWhite]

Today is a new low for me. I don’t even know where to begin. But I’m an Iranian girl. Maybe that by itself is enough explanation for some, maybe not. I am a medical student who studies in Italy, but we got the least valuable currency in the world and I lost contact with my family anyway because there is an internet block after the massacre happening. So I study medicine, you know it’s impossible to work at the same time. And probably can’t contact them again to support me financially.
After coming back from Iran on Tuesday, I keep asking myself why am I alive when people my age are being slaughtered on the street? Those of us living abroad are getting threatening emails from the embassy in Rome and Milan for protesting here in Italy and will probably be arrested as soon as we go back. Nice knowing I can never go back I guess? There are people infiltrating among us and even checking our instagram stories to sell us back to the government. No human being in this world probably believes all this, because it’s not humanly possible. We constantly keep saying the supreme leader of Iran would shock Hitler with how savage he is, and of course activists don’t give a fuck about Iran.

I haven’t contacted my family in so long, I miss them to death. But at the same time, what’s the point in living? I can’t bother to talk about anything else but Iran nowadays. I can’t be fine. Maybe that’s what the shitlamic republic wants after all.

 

[Selfmate]

I feel for you my friend since you told me your story like last year

I hope everyone in your family is safe and that your country can return to some kind of normacy

 

[SnowWhite]

I feel for you my friend since you told me your story like last year

I hope everyone in your family is safe and that your country can return to some kind of normacy

Many many thanks. Right now to me breathing hurts, emotionally and physically. I really want to live. No young healthy person remaining from Iran might be the goal the want to achieve. I need to be fine, I will try to find a way.

 

[Selfmate]

Many many thanks. Right now to me breathing hurts, emotionally and physically. I really want to live. No young healthy person remaining from Iran might be the goal the want to achieve. I need to be fine, I will try to find a way.

you're back in Italy correct?
there's something called survivor's guilt and you might like to read up on it
I cannot imagine what you must be feeling right now since I've never gone through that

revolutions and uprisings are painful as many many people especially innocent people get hurt but it's something that is often necessary for a country to take the next steps

the price of freedom is costly but well worth the sacrifice

 

[SnowWhite]

you're back in Italy correct?
there's something called survivor's guilt and you might like to read up on it
I cannot imagine what you must be feeling right now since I've never gone through that

revolutions and uprisings are painful as many many people especially innocent people get hurt but it's something that is often necessary for a country to take the next steps

the price of freedom is costly but well worth the sacrifice

Thank you pal, I am back to Italy yea. If I wasn’t I wouldn’t be able to be on this site right now. Another friend of mine also mentioned survivor’s guilt. I have to read up on it. Maybe find a therapist someday when I actually graduated and have money, but right now, 3 more years to go.

 

[Selfmate]

Thank you pal, I am back to Italy yea. If I wasn’t I wouldn’t be able to be on this site right now. Another friend of mine also mentioned survivor’s guilt. I have to read up on it. Maybe find a therapist someday when I actually graduated and have money, but right now, 3 more years to go.

just google it and read up on what it is and hearing other's stories might be calming

I'm certainly no therapist but I'm online for another 15 min or so if you want to tell me about the situation and how it's affecting you personally I'm all ears or if you don't want to take it and want a distraction from it I'm happy to help

 

[SnowWhite]

just google it and read up on what it is and hearing other's stories might be calming

I'm certainly no therapist but I'm online for another 15 min or so if you want to tell me about the situation and how it's affecting you personally I'm all ears or if you don't want to take it and want a distraction from it I'm happy to help

I will say more later friend, rest up ❤

 

[StrayMixx]

oh, honey... I'm sorry you have to go through this. I did hear about the Iranian internet blockage, and my heart aches for you. My advice is, maybe you have some Italian friends who can support you?

 

[SnowWhite]

oh, honey... I'm sorry you have to go through this. I did hear about the Iranian internet blockage, and my heart aches for you. My advice is, maybe you have some Italian friends who can support you?

I don’t exactly live in a bad community. However tbh you can’t constantly trauma dump on people. I do feel like I’m so bad I need to be at a doctor’s office or something. But what cn i do, i don’t even have insurance.