i'm so fxxk done (1 Viewer)

[yan]

it's just an outburst, and I didn't want to say it here, but I just want to get it out of me, although I've already talked to some people close to me, it seems that I can't say 100% and I also always keep it to myself because I feel that it's a superficial problem although it hurts me

I've been coming for a few years already feeling sad and underrated, no matter how much I try to improve or look for opportunities my life seems to be a doldrums, where every day is the same even though I'm trying to get out of it, and chasing my dreams, and it gets worse when everyone around me do something or their life is changing, achieving their dreams, having some kind of recognition (remembering that I am in no way envious, I am immensely happy for them, but at the same time I ask myself “what about me?”, I try not think because I don't want to lose my hopes even more or comparing myself) and I'm always here, no matter how much I rehearse, how much I practice how much I learn how much I look for opportunities on and off the internet and as if no one sees me
and that hurts me even more when I was 7 until I was 12 years old, a “child prodigy” where I had countless opportunities, I did a thousand and one things, but I regret it immensely, I feel that I didn’t take advantage of 1% of what was offered to me, and today At 17 I find myself in this state of I don't even know the title because it's strange. well, and on top of that, I got a hate the internet for some covers of mine that kinda breaks me in part, I'm doing everything possible on my watch, but I don't know when.

 

[chiefchilly1]

I don’t think its superficial, a lot of people feel like they’ve hit wall in life or trying to improve themselves but with no results. Most people feel what you’re feeling at one point in their lives. It takes a special someone to admit that you’re feeling this way and are trying to get out of it which is the very first step for this. Very easy to compare yourself to other people but that’s what makes everything worse, you can’t compare yourself because you are your own person.

 

[Selfmate]

what makes you happy OP?

I really like to play and watch basketball but I'm short and I'm not a great player - sure compared to the "average" person but compared to my teammates and regular players I'm probably the worst on court - that doesn't change whether I like the hobby or not I still really like basketball regardless of my personal performance

the question you have to ask yourself is "does doing covers make you happy or is it the recognition you get from other people that makes you happy?"

 

[MK3AM]

Yan, I hope you know I'm here if you need someone to talk to. I'm glad you shared how you feel, and your problem is not superficial! you are an amazing singer and dancer and your voice is amazing I wish I had a voice like yours I love your confidence I love how when you're singing and dancing we can tell you're having fun. I'm sure people will one day realize how talented you are, and how you put your all into it!

 

[the101]

I think we all hit that wall sometimes in our lives. Have you considered taking a little break and trying something else? Sometimes we need to do something else to renew our interest in the things we love - I think we can get burned out and need a fresh perspective.

 

[yan]

I don’t think its superficial, a lot of people feel like they’ve hit wall in life or trying to improve themselves but with no results. Most people feel what you’re feeling at one point in their lives. It takes a special someone to admit that you’re feeling this way and are trying to get out of it which is the very first step for this. Very easy to compare yourself to other people but that’s what makes everything worse, you can’t compare yourself because you are your own person.

frr, it's very hard to not compare, but i'm trying, and thanks for the word <3

 

[yan]

what makes you happy OP?

I really like to play and watch basketball but I'm short and I'm not a great player - sure compared to the "average" person but compared to my teammates and regular players I'm probably the worst on court - that doesn't change whether I like the hobby or not I still really like basketball regardless of my personal performance

the question you have to ask yourself is "does doing covers make you happy or is it the recognition you get from other people that makes you happy?"

wow, you said everything. I love doing covers, singing, and doing my things, but I'm kinda making others' bad opinions affect me.

 

[yan]

Yan, I hope you know I'm here if you need someone to talk to. I'm glad you shared how you feel, and your problem is not superficial! you are an amazing singer and dancer and your voice is amazing I wish I had a voice like yours I love your confidence I love how when you're singing and dancing we can tell you're having fun. I'm sure people will one day realize how talented you are, and how you put your all into it!

thank u so much bae <3 you don't have an ideia how u help me and encourage me, you're awesome, and I'm so grateful, and thankful <3

 

[yan]

I think we all hit that wall sometimes in our lives. Have you considered taking a little break and trying something else? Sometimes we need to do something else to renew our interest in the things we love - I think we can get burned out and need a fresh perspective.

THIS! but at the same time that I want to stop, my mind said that if I stop nothing will happen either, so I still try and never catch a break in the 4 years I doing and trying to experiment with the same things, I'm tired.

 

[MK3AM]

thank u so much bae <3 you don't have an ideia how u help me and encourage me, you're awesome, and I'm so grateful, and thankful <3

 

[Selfmate]

wow, you said everything. I love doing covers, singing, and doing my things, but I'm kinda making others' bad opinions affect me.

in that case try to drown out the negativity (if you can) - like kpop idols they have a lot of negativity thrown at them and the sooner you get past that hurdle and focus on the people and fans who like your stuff the better...

life is too short to be focused on people who don't like you or the covers that you do mate - instead focus on the people who do...

good luck with your future endeavours my friend

 

[yan]

in that case try to drown out the negativity (if you can) - like kpop idols they have a lot of negativity thrown at them and the sooner you get past that hurdle and focus on the people and fans who like your stuff the better...

life is too short to be focused on people who don't like you or the covers that you do mate - instead focus on the people who do...

good luck with your future endeavours my friend

thank u so much for the words, it's so true, I'm very thankful. thank you so much <3