i wish my dad acknowledged my existence more.
i was sitting in the room today and the fan was on, and he just walks in, without even noticing me, turns off the fan and literally leaves.
its not like i was hiding somewhere i was in plain sight.
and when i asked for his help in filling out college forms he shouted at me because i woke up at 2 in the afternoon today
and i had sent him the list for 2 weeks but all that time he didnt utter a single word to me about it.
and now, its my fault. hes just so ignorant towards me and yk what its okay. because he is a shit person and i hate it and he knows i hate him. he disgusts me.