the neverending struggle with being aroace (1 Viewer)

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i've labeled myself as aroace for years now but every so often another person drops into my life and makes me question it all over again.

i just met this guy and i have these confusing feelings about him and it just idk... makes me feel invalidated in my aroace-ness. i can't tell if i'm just excited that i met some cool guy and am getting to know him or if it's something more than that. i have other things in life to worry about and i don't want to waste my time but i can't stop thinking about him.

ofc everyone's aroace experience is different. some feel no attraction to others at all, some rarely do, and so on. i've never really had a crush on anyone in my life. not a true crush. i've found people cool and interesting, to where i want them to be a part of my life but not in a romantic way. BUT this dude is making me question my entire existence.

i can't tell what my feelings are for him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i'm gonna be seeing him a whole bunch this week and it's making me nervous BUT I DON'T WANNA SEEM NERVOUS TO HIM