Sensitive TW! Venting (1 Viewer)

[naevis]

I want to d!e.

 

[motorp77]

Don't you're my friend stay with me

 

[naevis]

Don't you're my friend stay with me

I don't want to any longer.

 

[motorp77]

I don't want to any longer.

Go dm

 

[Villains]

I want to d!e.

do you need to talk?

 

[naevis]

do you need to talk?

Yes

 

[Abeamus]

My dms are open if you need to talk

 

[MK3AM]

please dont we will all miss you :(

 

[naevis]

please dont we will all miss you :(

I would cause much less pain to everyone not only on this forum but my friends and parents as well.

 

[MK3AM]

I would cause much less pain to everyone not only on this forum but my friends and parents as well.

hun that wouldn't cause us less pain it would cause more please dont you mean alot to everyone :(

 

[Magician]

don’t hesitate to pm me if you need to talk

 

[Selfmate]

yeah I think I said it before but this is way above KPS' paygrade my friend...
I think it's best if you seek advice from a proper medical professional

List of suicide crisis lines - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[Pirioca]

We already talked in another thread? And I posted this internet address.

Wellness Together Canada | Get help now

www.wellnesstogether.ca

Did you contact them or a similar support? You should because those people know how to deal with your problems. As I already wrote: You aren't the only one and there is help for you.

 

[naevis]

We already talked in another thread? And I posted this internet address.

Wellness Together Canada | Get help now

www.wellnesstogether.ca

Did you contact them or a similar support? You should because those people know how to deal with your problems. As I already wrote: You aren't the only one and there is help for you.

I did but the feelings don't go away, they just get numbed.

 

[Pirioca]

I did but the feelings don't go away, they just get numbed.

That's normal when you are depressed. There are many people that try to numb those feelings with medication. But it's just a way to get through the day, it's no real help. There's a reason for those overhelming feelings. We all have bad days but when you find the reason, those deep bad feelings will go away. It will not happen from one day to another but it will happen. It might be difficult to find the true reason for your depressive states (not the current reasons, it goes a bit deeper) on your own. You probably need someone that has a more objective view. Calling a helpline is the first step and it's probably the most difficult step. But now you should go one step further. I read somewhere that approximately 280 million people in the world have depression and that are only the reported cases - you are definately not alone!

We all have our life tasks. Call it destiny, call it Karma. You can try running away from your problems. But I've learned that they have the tendency to already wait for you at the finish.

I've also learned that there are holistic ways to handle depression: better eating, doing sports, meditation, gardening, caring for an animal, working voluntarily. Working voluntarily! That's what I did (in a hospital) and it felt really good. Because you feel every day that you are needed. There are many ways to work voluntarily (animal shelter, soup kitchen, old people's home), and I can promise you that it will change your life for the better. Just wait until you see the gratitude in people's (or animals') eyes.

Your inner demons (there aren't any real demons but it might feel like there are ones) hate it when other people sincerely thank you and give you good feelings and even love! It's like pouring holy water over a vampire.

When I worked voluntarily in the hospital I talked with cancer patients too. I went the hard way because I quickly realized that I talked with already dying people. When I realized that, it felt like I was hit by a freight train. There were people that had a cancer prognosis of a few months. And all they want is more time to live. Just a few years more with the beloved ones. Just spending more time in nature, enjoying the sun. Just spending more time with the pets that will left behind. And you talked about throwing your life away? There's nothing more precious on this planet than life.

It's important that you look for a reason in your life. You should also read books that give you self-confidence. For me books about Buddhism worked (although I wouldn't call myself a buddhist). They told me that I'm the only reason for my bad feelings. No one can order me to feel bad! It's impossible. You always decide how you want to feel and how you look at the world. Stop reading the bad news, don't care about politicians and all those prophets of doom. They are all irrelevant because your feelings determine your worldview!