Right now I'm thinking. I always believed "the nicer, the better" but I guess not... My mind understands people are not so good or nice, but my heart keeps hoping and seeing good where there is none... Always forgiving, just being such a fool and letting anyone do as they please with me sighhh.. Why don't I ever learn? I know better if I stop and think, but it's just... If I let that poison soak my heart, won't I be swallowed by the selfishness and toxicity and become like those people, the ones who hurt others recklessly...? I'd rather die than be such an existence tbh.. I just can't seem to be kind without being so foolish... What to do... 