Sensitive Why am I like this? (2 Viewers)

[Jewel]

Okay so. Right now I find myself wanting to be a boy. I mean like physically in person I'm not either particularly. I'm not really feminine but not really boyish. I want my virtual representation to be boyish. Right now I'm trying to work on my physical appearance to where I can get to a point to express who I am. But I worry that the idols I like or guys I may want to pursue will want really girly girls. I can be feminine but not really girly. I don't like dresses or skirts. I've worn them before but I usually wear shorts with them. I know that doesn't necessarily mean anything b/c these days males can be feminine too. I mean if I have to I can embrace my girly side. It would depend on if I really like the person and can feel comfortable like that. I have had times when I wanted to be very girly or feminine. I really don't know what's going on with me. I've never wanted to be called he/him before though. It doesn't feel right. I don't want to tell my mom atm b/c I don't know if this is just a passing thing or if I'm really gender-queer/gender-fluid. Or maybe I'm gender-neutral. Or maybe I'm just really a tomboy. I've even thought of changing my online handle/name to be more neutral. I don't know any thoughts?

 

[Willow]

sometimes I have a similar thought.

 

[Jewel]

sometimes I have a similar thought.

Glad to know I'm not the only one

 

[Lovely_Cornchips]

It may just be a preference for the way you want to dress and appear not necessarily a gender or sex thing. I never fully understood the need to label one's self-based off of how you want to dress. Unless I missed something in the post where you state wanting to transition.

Clothes don't determine gender/sex in my opinion so like just wear what you want and feel comfortable with and don't feel the need to label yourself. Labels are stupid. Sounds to me like you are still young and trying to figure it out and there is a pressure to label yourself but ignore it. You may regret it in the future.

Just be yourself and don't worry about what to name it.

 

[Willow]

Glad to know I'm not the only one

That's great for you but maybe the difference I have with you is that guys aren't really interesting me for various reasons

 

[Willow]

But I relate to the fact that I don't feel extremely feminine, I have never been like that and doubt I will be one day

 

[Jewel]

That's great for you but maybe the difference I have with you is that guys aren't really interesting me for various reasons

Guys aren't interested IN you or guys aren't interesting TO you?

 

[Willow]

Guys aren't interested IN you or guys aren't interesting TO you?

BOTH

 

[Jewel]

It may just be a preference for the way you want to dress and appear not necessarily a gender or sex thing. I never fully understood the need to label one's self-based off of how you want to dress. Unless I missed something in the post where you state wanting to transition.

Clothes don't determine gender/sex in my opinion so like just wear what you want and feel comfortable with and don't feel the need to label yourself. Labels are stupid. Sounds to me like you are still young and trying to figure it out and there is a pressure to label yourself but ignore it. You may regret it in the future.

Just be yourself and don't worry about what to name it.

Very true

 

[Jewel]

BOTH

Hm interesting. No one's been interested in me either so don't feel bad.

 

[Willow]

Hm interesting. No one's been interested in me either so don't feel bad.

I mean I am average physically speaking but I am invisible for everyone

 

[Willow]

well technically I could have a relationship with someone but it didn't work well as I wasn't that much interested in them

 

[Jewel]

I mean I am average physically speaking but I am invisible for everyone

Aw, I'm below average in looks and physically I am somewhere where I'm working as hard as I can to get to a better place.

 

[Willow]

Aw, I'm below average in looks and physically overweight badly which I'm working on as hard as I can.

I am sure you are prettier than me anyways.

 

[Jewel]

I am sure you are prettier than me anyways.

TY. But I doubt it we are beautiful on the inside THO

 

[Willow]

as pretty as your username is

 

[Willow]

TY. But I doubt it we are beautiful on the inside THO

you are beautiful hun

 

[Jewel]

as pretty as your username is

omg ty :3

 

[Jewel]

you are beautiful hun

ty so much. u are too!