I realised over recent days that the majority of people here would not only not miss me, they'd even ignore me and make jokes about me. Which is what I partially figured would happen.
You, on the other hand, are easily one of the most popular users here, and everyone would obviously not only miss you, but have your entire account to go back through should you, I dunno, die or something. Your presence wouldn't just fade away.
Plus, you literally met a girlfriend IRL that you made here, which few people can claim to have done (with their besties, their partners, etc.) and both of you have been rubbing it in people's faces even though this is a public forum and that can be a triggering topic.
When you say you want to die or could just leave and not be missed in the mental health thread, someone flocks to your aid. When I say it, literally just a few posts done, if that, no one says a thing.
Pain is relative. But I'll just be human and do the very human thing of saying that you're on a far better footing than you realise, and that it isn't fair of you to keep alluding to things like this, even if you say that it doesn't matter what people think.
It would be hilarious if your girlfriend hit me with the banhammer for this, by the way.