Sensitive Today I said goodbye to my baby… (2 Viewers)

[Wingfrost]

I wasn’t even going to mention this because
1. I didn’t think I’d be up to being online, but if I’m not distracting myself with something I just cry.
2. Even when I’m not feeling great I still always try to only show the positive side of myself, it’s just how I cope, if I don’t I again just become a crying mess.

But at around 2:30 today we brought my kitty Kiara to the vet so they could help her pass on peacefully. Her last appointment before this it was evident that her quality of life was declining. I mentioned her maybe a week ago and that she wasn’t doing well, she did get fluids and a stimulant but it didn’t do much tbh. She was unable to pass any waste, not drinking, and just not 100% herself. I was thankfully able to take off time from work and spend 5 whole extra days with her. While she wasn’t 100% during that time I could tell she was happier and not as uncomfortable. She got all the treats, food and love a kitty could ask for. Her last night with me she must have known something was going to happen because she never left my side all night, I cuddled her, recorded her purring and we watched an animation that she seemed absolutely fascinated by.
Today I held her as our vet helped her pass on and she’s finally at peace, no medications, no pain, no discomfort, no more tests.
I wish cherishing her was enough, but no amount of cherishing was enough for me personally. I’m so happy she’s at peace, but handing her over to the vet and leaving her body there, coming home with an empty cat carrier, to my room with her bed, scratch posts and the absence of her kills me. I want her back, 13 years was no where near enough. ​

 

[StirFriedPanda]

I don't know if it helps but I 100% believe that every pet we lose here is waiting to welcome us home in heaven. Think of the amazing happy life she had here because you loved her. You did the right thing and it will get easier.

 

[Yili]

I'm so sorry to hear about this Wing, I know for a fact that Kiara had the best owner and love that exists
You always talk about your cats with such affection <3 Kiara was definitely a well loved part of your family

 

[alo]

oh gosh op i'm so sorry, it must hurt soo much to lose a loved one. just know that kiara had a wonderful and happy life because she had a loving human to be with <3 it will get better, i assure you <3

 

[hxney_jun]

rip meow meow. <3
im glad you were able to enjoy your last days with her :)

 

[Day]

I am so sorry for your loss Wing. It sounds like you did everything in your power to ensure she lived happily in her last moments. I hope you'll frame a photo of her and keep it somewhere safe, and if you plan on getting her cremated I highly recommend getting a custom urn for her. That's what I did when I lost my boy, and it gives me comfort. If you're interested, i can send you the photo of mine.

 

[Myth]

sorry for your loss. I'm glad your last moments with her were peaceful.

 

[Wingfrost]

I am so sorry for your loss Wing. It sounds like you did everything in your power to ensure she lived happily in her last moments. I hope you'll frame a photo of her and keep it somewhere safe, and if you plan on getting her cremated I highly recommend getting a custom urn for her. That's what I did when I lost my boy, and it gives me comfort. If you're interested, i can send you the photo of mine.

I have hers already picked out, it will come with an engraved quote I wrote, her paw print, a name tag, and a bit of her fur. I also did a craft thing with her a few years back and that will be going with it as well. ❤ I do wish I would have gone for a custom one, they had kitty shaped ones but I didn’t see those until today and I just wasn’t up to signing the paperwork again. I’ll be happy to have her back with me when she’s cremated.
May I ask how long it took for you to get used to your baby boy not being around anymore? Her and I did everything together and I keep expecting her to be there whenever I turn around. If your not comfortable replying that’s alright I understand.

 

[The_LastRomeo]

Poor thing, I'm sorry you had to experience that, she passed on knowing she was loved

 

[athenaaa]

I’m so sorry you have to go through this Wing I don’t quite know what to say but if you ever need a listening ear I’m here to listen. Please take some time for yourself hun

 

[Yelena_Belova]

I know for a fact that she’s happy in pet Heaven, and can’t wait to see you, and in the meantime is bragging to everyone else about how great you are and how much she loved you.

 

[uran]

I am so sorry for your loss. Having to put your pet down after fighting an sickness tears you apart becsuse you feel so powerless. I am glad that you and kiara got to spend her last days together. My deepest condolences and i wish all the strenght for you.

 

[Day]

I have hers already picked out, it will come with an engraved quote I wrote, her paw print, a name tag, and a bit of her fur. I also did a craft thing with her a few years back and that will be going with it as well. ❤ I do wish I would have gone for a custom one, they had kitty shaped ones but I didn’t see those until today and I just wasn’t up to signing the paperwork again. I’ll be happy to have her back with me when she’s cremated.
May I ask how long it took for you to get used to your baby boy not being around anymore? Her and I did everything together and I keep expecting her to be there whenever I turn around. If your not comfortable replying that’s alright I understand.

I lost him in August of 21 and I'm still not over it. I can't look at his photos and I also have a habit of looking at the place he used to sleep every single day. However, the urn helps a lot. It makes me feel like I did something to honor him.

 

[ChiaraStar169]

awwww Wingsy, come here... I'm with Bad Panda, she'll be waiting for you when it's your turn!

 

[butter]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need to grieve. Losing our pets is one of the worst things we can ever experience. Just hold on to the best memories you have with her and cherish them.

You can reach me if you need to talk it through