OMG YOU GET IT TOO... like i get having parasocial bonds with public figures! i get having celebrity crushes on them! trix is definitely amongst my many celebrity crushes. i'm still into kpop heavily enough to become whipped for idols that way - like i recently developed one for evnne's jihoo (what doesn't help is that we're the same age rip). but to genuinely believe your bias loves you... from the corny ass "the sun is shining so brightly today, but not brighter than unnie's love for her fans!" messages that you paid for??? yeah nah
like if we were to talk about my numerous celeb crushes... i admire the work they do, i may think they're funny, and they're cute enough to make me giggle and kick my feet whenever i see them. like trix? phenomenal dancer, hilarious on his yt channel, extremely good-looking. jihoo? great at dancing and rapping for idol standards esp considering he's just 18, ballsy enough to call mnet out while on their show, and looks adorable, especially with his braces. but lmao neither trix nor jihoo are going to help me write my long overdue economics research project. so to invest that amt of energy into them... i could never