What has been the most difficult aspect of trying to both navigate and manage your friendships with people? Where have they either failed you or disappointed you and how have you dealt with the feelings?
I don't know to have to decide what is enough and if I can afford to give a little more? If putting this much more forward will cause me more stress and if that stress is worth it, if that constant doubt is worth it if that constant anxiety is worth it and more. I have a hard time drawing a line when it comes to knowing when to let go and give up. That has probably been the biggest issue for me and difficult aspect.
Not believing me, lying to me, believing lies about me, and honestly, the list could go on...also not getting me at all even after knowing me for so long.
Also, I don't deal with feelings well I internalize and self-destruct. Self-harm, starvation, insomnia, gastritis, anxiety, self-hatred, and more. Then it gets to a really bad point and I lash out. Then it repeats.