.. of course, there is no way to know for sure, but what do you think you will be feeling and thinking (assuming it doesn't end while you are still young or in some "unusual" way ..) you know, based on the current state of things.. and also, apologies for this odd question lol..
like I said, there is no way to know.. realistically, I'll probably die with a heavy and regretful heart and shedding bitter tears. But I might also just feel some relief and if I'm lucky, some satisfaction simply because I did try, so many times.. to be and to do good.. even if I only failed and failed. Funny how I can already taste the regret yet it's not enough to make me change my fate