Are you a self conscious person? (1 Viewer)

[lexus]

I've been self conscious since I was a child. I mostly worried about how my appearance looked, and sometimes how I looked while performing an action with people having their eyes on me. I've always assumed that everyone would find me "ugly" or "stupid", or whatever.

I'll admit that I'm still self conscious today, but I don't think I'm as bad as I used to be. Lately I've been saying to myself "who the fuck cares what they think", "they don't matter to me anyways". I usually say it if I catch myself getting worried about what people will think of me when I go out somewhere. I'm trying to put these thoughts into my head more so that I can hopefully stop worrying about what others think. Hoping to find some more confidence in myself at some point, too.

What about you guys? Don't be afraid to be honest

 

[lexus]

Don't let me flop please

 

[cocomelon]

I've been self conscious since I was a child. I mostly worried about how my appearance looked, and sometimes how I looked while performing an action with people having their eyes on me. I've always assumed that everyone would find me "ugly" or "stupid", or whatever.

I'll admit that I'm still self conscious today, but I don't think I'm as bad as I used to be. Lately I've been saying to myself "who the fuck cares what they think", "they don't matter to me anyways". I usually say it if I catch myself getting worried about what people will think of me when I go out somewhere. I'm trying to put these thoughts into my head more so that I can hopefully stop worrying about what others think. Hoping to find some more confidence in myself at some point, too.

What about you guys? Don't be afraid to be honest

 

[cocomelon]

yeah, ive been the most self conscious right now in my life :>

 

[Lovely_Cornchips]

Depends on how drunk or high I am....or ADHD I am that day.

 

[Yili]

I am extremely self conscious but I've been working on not being so scared of doing anything in public

 

[SnowWhite]

As a child? No, I was confident af. Sadly, puberty hits and things change for worse almost always.

 

[SnowWhite]

dp

 

[litc]

Depends on how drunk or high I am....or ADHD I am that day.

the second part ^^^

depends how impulsive I am at the time

I prefer being self-conscious to being impulsive and doing smth stupid and overthinking it and being self-conscious abt that later tho

 

[Villains]

yeah i'm really self conscious though i try my best not to be

 

[lexus]

I am extremely self conscious but I've been working on not being so scared of doing anything in public

Keep up the good work Yilith

 

[athenaaa]

Yes both appearance wise and personality. I struggle to take a compliment because of it

 

[cocomelon]

being so scared of doing anything in public

i feel u </3

 

[doll]

not really , i mean i sometimes , rarely , think " oh what if they don't like my outfit ? "
but it's rare that I am externally sc , and internally asw

 

[litc]

the second part ^^^

depends how impulsive I am at the time

I prefer being self-conscious to being impulsive and doing smth stupid and overthinking it and being self-conscious abt that later tho

I feel like I should expand on this more

whenever I’m not impulsive but anxious I can get really self-conscious. Like even eating or writing in a classroom I got self-conscious. But I’m not good at explaining things like this. And about whatever I do bc I’m a perfectionist ig.

if it’s ok with @Juniverse could I show a fictional short story I wrote in a writing chat we have that ig is kinda relevant (it’s bad tho)

I’ve got to check the chat and write more

 

[Juniverse]

I feel like I should expand on this more

whenever I’m not impulsive but anxious I can get really self-conscious. Like even eating or writing in a classroom I got self-conscious. But I’m not good at explaining things like this. And about whatever I do bc I’m a perfectionist ig.

if it’s ok with @Juniverse could I show a fictional short story I wrote in a writing chat we have that ig is kinda relevant (it’s bad tho)

I’ve got to check the chat and write more

Ofc show it, it's not bad

 

[litc]

I feel like I should expand on this more

whenever I’m not impulsive but anxious I can get really self-conscious. Like even eating or writing in a classroom I got self-conscious. But I’m not good at explaining things like this. And about whatever I do bc I’m a perfectionist ig.

if it’s ok with @Juniverse could I show a fictional short story I wrote in a writing chat we have that ig is kinda relevant (it’s bad tho)

I’ve got to check the chat and write more

From a while ago

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A loud thud resonated throughout the gym as the body slumped to the floor, felled by Millie's powerful kick. Other than Millie's shallow, yet rhythmic breathing, the room was in silence. Millie bent down and offered her opponent a hand as the silence was shattered by loud cheering. Joan accepted the help and stood up sheepishly, dusting herself off.

"Go Millie! Hey, that's my girl! What'd I tell ya? She ALWAYS delivers" yelled Millie's coach, overpowering all other sounds.

"Hey, good job. It was an intense match" Millie told Joan, trying to ignore her coach's booming voice. Joan met her eyes and responded with a small smile, and Millie countered with one of her own. As Millie turned around and worked her way through the crowd, her coach's boasting remained the soundtrack. Person after person congratulated her, faces and names blurring in her mind. Millie silently smiled and continued toward the door.

"Hey Millie, we're gonna win that basketball game tomorrow too, aren't we," a boy called after her. The sentence was met with loud whooping. The sonic distraction allowed her to escape, and Millie grabbed the door's handle and let herself out, leaving the celebration behind her.

She rounded the corner and knew what was about to happen before it started. This wasn't the first time. Millie sunk against the wall as her body fell victim to the shaking. She was shaking so much she could do nothing. Nothing except wait for it to pass.

"She always delivers." The words echoed in her brain, ping ponging against her skull. All the compliments, the congratulations gnawed at her like termites. She felt unworthy. Guilty. Undeserving of the praise heaped on her. She really wasn't that great, didn't they know? Why did everyone think so highly of her, if only they knew...

Millie was hyperventilating, taking fast breaths yet struggling to breathe. The words continued to loop through her brain. "She always delivers. She always delivers. She always delivers." Not just this match. Basketball. School with all her advanced classes. Didn't they know she was barely making it? Didn't they know she really wasn't as responsible, as hardworking as they thought? Didn't they know...

Millie closed her eyes tight as the thought trailed off, and the world began spinning, days passing in seconds. She wasn't in control. Millie was strong, and she knew it. Everyone knew it, and she even prided herself on it.

As her world continued on it's invisible carousel ride, Millie felt her body heating up, then just as quickly freezing, and the cycle continued. The thoughts continued to swirl in her head. She thought too much, she chastised herself. No wonder this happened. Millie wished there was a mute button for her brain, that she press and just not think. But there wasn't.

Being strong was tiring. Couldn't she be weak sometimes?

As the storm finally passed, Millie opened her eyes again, but panic set in once more. Joan was gaping down at her.

END

but I guess that’s better at explaining things than I could do, ofc the character isn’t me, I wrote a story based on the word strong and this is it

 

[narivenus]

I am extremely self conscious but I've been working on not being so scared of doing anything in public

same ):

 

[narivenus]

extremely self conscious and always have been like this, my friends are really confident and i wanna try and be like them but i am always scared about what other people will think about me
i wanna be confident but i cant sahjsahskja

 

[narivenus]

I've been self conscious since I was a child. I mostly worried about how my appearance looked, and sometimes how I looked while performing an action with people having their eyes on me. I've always assumed that everyone would find me "ugly" or "stupid", or whatever.

I'll admit that I'm still self conscious today, but I don't think I'm as bad as I used to be. Lately I've been saying to myself "who the fuck cares what they think", "they don't matter to me anyways". I usually say it if I catch myself getting worried about what people will think of me when I go out somewhere. I'm trying to put these thoughts into my head more so that I can hopefully stop worrying about what others think. Hoping to find some more confidence in myself at some point, too.

What about you guys? Don't be afraid to be honest