Curse out 2023 - your worse moments (1 Viewer)

[Nina]

It's the end of the year.

And I fucking hate this year. A lot of heartbreak and bad stuff happened this year.

So use this thread to talk about it and vent and curse out 2023 if you want.

I spent so much money, it hurt. If you know anything about Indian weddings and being related to either side, you are dropping a pretty penny on multiple outfits for multiple days. And Indian dresses are not cheap. :) Fancy ass dresses that I'm literally wearing once and never again because theyre too sparkly to wear if youre a regular guest to someone else's wedding and you can't repeat if you're attending another close family member's wedding. Make it make sense.
Add on all the times I had family over. Dropping so much money on groceries and amenities. Dear fam, in 2024 I want you guys to not visit my area. Leave me alone.


This year I lost two beings I know I can't live without. Actually, when my Abuelita passed away, I was understanding. She was at an age where health concerns are at the top and she's had a few hospital visits this past year so we knew it was coming, we just didn't expect it so soon. I can confidently say I've healed and keep her in good memories.

When I had to put my pup down, that's something I am still broken over. Everything surrounding his health, what the cause could have been, what if he was put on a different medication. Maybe then he would have not become DKA. I have so many questions but nowhere to find the answers. His health rapidly drained and I got as much help from the people around but there never was a solution. I still to this day sleep with his favorite toy and cry my heart out. I miss and need my child. I don't understand what happened.
It still hurts so much. He was just 4 and half and everything concerning his health came out of nowhere is what it seems like. I dont know when I'll be able to heal from his passing. I miss him so much but I hope he's happy up there chasing all the random leaves and barking at mysterious squirrels.
SO FUCK YOU 2023. YOU TOOK MY CHILD.

Financially, this was a draining too. I didn't have proper insurance for my pup so I had to pay out of pocket. I did get help luckily. So add this to the reason my bank account cried.

Also, right after my pup left, I now realize I've been having so many health issues so I can only blame it on stress x.x
Right before the Euro trip I got horribly sick and an annoying dry cough that remained through the first half of my trip.
That was fun.
Found out I got stomach ulcers a couple of months ago which are closed now by the way. It's not gone completely but progress
I'm currently dealing with another random cough. I'm on Day 12 i think x.x i fucking hate it.

2023 we have problems ​

 

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this was probably my worst year on that forum. i hate that place i dont understand why that happened to us, i dont understand why people do that, why is it bad with us? i hated 2023 on that site, it was the worst.

 

[athenaaa]

I’m sorry that all happened to you, that’s awful. Hope things get better for you

My best friend irl passed away in September of last yearso I spent the good beginning of this year feeling guilty about not attending her funeral (didn’t know the date) and being terrified to drive. She passed in a motor vehicle accident. Her death broke me and still haven’t come to terms with that. Things feel so empty now.

As for this year, I learned I have carpral tunnel and that hurts quite a bit. I struggled a lot mentally. Still adjusting to a new city. Got a promotion at work but it’s more hours and more responsibilities than I expected so I am a little stressed

Picked up a second job cause I can’t afford my tuition without it. I just feel so burnt out but I can’t just stop.

Lost friendships and trying to see the positive side of it, maybe it wasn’t meant to be.

Also been sick quite a bit, literally fuck my immune system.

I’m gonna fight the public transit system in the city Why does it constantly make me late despite all the planning in the world?

To make this post not so dark, what I can thank 2023 for is the continuation of my healthy relationship. Before this I had been in multiple toxic relationships where I was controlled or abused…. I am just thankful now to be in a healthy relationship. Sometimes I do require reassurance but I am getting better and learning slowly that I can be loved.

Sorry this post is long

 

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I’m sorry that all happened to you, that’s awful. Hope things get better for you

My best friend irl passed away in September of last yearso I spent the good beginning of this year feeling guilty about not attending her funeral (didn’t know the date) and being terrified to drive. She passed in a motor vehicle accident. Her death broke me and still haven’t come to terms with that. Things feel so empty now.

As for this year, I learned I have carpral tunnel and that hurts quite a bit. I struggled a lot mentally. Still adjusting to a new city. Got a promotion at work but it’s more hours and more responsibilities than I expected so I am a little stressed

Picked up a second job cause I can’t afford my tuition without it. I just feel so burnt out but I can’t just stop.

Lost friendships and trying to see the positive side of it, maybe it wasn’t meant to be.

Also been sick quite a bit, literally fuck my immune system.

I’m gonna fight the public transit system in the city Why does it constantly make me late despite all the planning in the world?

To make this post not so dark, what I can thank 2023 for is the continuation of my healthy relationship. Before this I had been in multiple toxic relationships where I was controlled or abused…. I am just thankful now to be in a healthy relationship. Sometimes I do require reassurance but I am getting better and learning slowly that I can be loved.

Sorry this post is long

Im so sorry about your best friend you didnt know the date of her funeral and thats okay !! i hope 2024 becomes a better year for you !

 

[athenaaa]

Im so sorry about your best friend you didnt know the date of her funeral and thats okay !! i hope 2024 becomes a better year for you !

I didn’t find out until the day after

I hope the same goes for you too

 

[Nina]

I’m sorry that all happened to you, that’s awful. Hope things get better for you

My best friend irl passed away in September of last yearso I spent the good beginning of this year feeling guilty about not attending her funeral (didn’t know the date) and being terrified to drive. She passed in a motor vehicle accident. Her death broke me and still haven’t come to terms with that. Things feel so empty now.

As for this year, I learned I have carpral tunnel and that hurts quite a bit. I struggled a lot mentally. Still adjusting to a new city. Got a promotion at work but it’s more hours and more responsibilities than I expected so I am a little stressed

Picked up a second job cause I can’t afford my tuition without it. I just feel so burnt out but I can’t just stop.

Lost friendships and trying to see the positive side of it, maybe it wasn’t meant to be.

Also been sick quite a bit, literally fuck my immune system.

I’m gonna fight the public transit system in the city Why does it constantly make me late despite all the planning in the world?

To make this post not so dark, what I can thank 2023 for is the continuation of my healthy relationship. Before this I had been in multiple toxic relationships where I was controlled or abused…. I am just thankful now to be in a healthy relationship. Sometimes I do require reassurance but I am getting better and learning slowly that I can be loved.

Sorry this post is long

Dealing with a death is hard. One of my cousin felt guilty as well not attending the funeral because of a wedding and as her family we kept telling her those who love you know if you can't always physically be there but you're always there in mind and spirit. I'm sorry x.x this is cheesy.
People who love you and know you will understand.


and yes, fuck you public transport system. You smell >.>

 

[athenaaa]

Dealing with a death is hard. One of my cousin felt guilty as well not attending the funeral because of a wedding and as her family we kept telling her those who love you know if you can't always physically be there but you're always there in mind and spirit. I'm sorry x.x this is cheesy.
People who love you and know you will understand.


and yes, fuck you public transport system. You smell >.>

Its okay, I don’t mind a little cheese, it’s delicious Sorry, trying to make this a bit lighthearted and joking is how I cope.

 

[noctis]

Spoiler

there was multiple people who made me think i didnt deserve love and i was just a bad person because i expressed my emotions which is fucked up. and i believed all of it. and i basically actually experienced homophobic people 😀 that forum literally destroyed my mental health so bad 😭 im so glad im not there anymore

cheers to a good 2024

 

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Spoiler

there was multiple people who made me think i didnt deserve love and i was just a bad person because i expressed my emotions which is fucked up. and i believed all of it. and i basically actually experienced homophobic people 😀 that forum literally destroyed my mental health so bad 😭 im so glad im not there anymore

cheers to a good 2024

 

[noctis]

 

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fuck all of those people, theyre wrong and probably ugly

 

[Nina]

Its okay, I don’t mind a little cheese, it’s delicious Sorry, trying to make this a bit lighthearted and joking is how I cope.

We love humor in dark spaces it's my favorite way to cope.

Spoiler

there was multiple people who made me think i didnt deserve love and i was just a bad person because i expressed my emotions which is fucked up. and i believed all of it. and i basically actually experienced homophobic people 😀 that forum literally destroyed my mental health so bad 😭 im so glad im not there anymore

cheers to a good 2024

 

[Dreamer_of_Songs]

The two worst moments I had this year were these events.

1) The death of cousin's friend back in February of this year. I haven't heard much after they extradited both her ex-husband and his accomplice.

2) When I sprained both my ankles back in late March of this year (I recovered just fine, btw )

 

[DaisySkies]

most of mine are related to kpop mainly bc of the site :/
moonbin passed....felix and the rest of skz were threatened a lot this year.....chan's room was stopped....my anxiety spiked....a lot of idols were hated on for no reason....i've also had a few people i know online who were threatening to take their own life...i felt like doing the same at one point as well...

 

[The_LastRomeo]

I regret not applying to be a mod on here so I could have a reason to quit that place, I'm basically the only one active and I'm handling all the problems with no help
I basically achieved nothing this year, as usual it was stressful.
Constant unfair treatment this year, I swear it gets worse every year! Bro didn't even say happy birthday to me, and he won't let us visit our aunts. Besides my baby sister being born and us moving this year sucked.
I don't have high hopes for next year.

 

[anyu]

developed anorexia
then recovered
then relapsed
then recovered
then relapsed
and now im recovering again
also i got a dog and shes the perfectest thing but she loves my mom more than me grr
i was on edtwt and so my parents took all my devices and blocked basically every app not for school. no joke, i dont have a camera app anymore.
its my first year of high school... i dont rlly like it, its better than middle school socially but in terms of work,

also my dad has consistently, throughout the whole ed thing, been blaming me and punishing me whenever i relapse and i cant control it, it's also annoying how he expected me to make a perfect recovery when i was mentally not recovered at all, only physically. then i would just starve again and he would get mad again and it starts over.
after this year im starting to really wonder if my dad truly loves me as much as he says, because he talks a lot about how i mean the world to him and wtv, but then he won't reconsider his viewpoint for even a second. i relapsed BECAUSE OF HIM the second time.

prob one of the worst years of my life but at least im finally exiting that phase of my life where i was super emotional and sensitive and dramatic all the time lol

 

[Wingfrost]

I’m so sorry you went through all of that Nina. I really hope next year you’ll have more happy memories.

For me personally this was one of the worst years ever for me. My baby (kitty Kiara’s) cancer suddenly worsened and even after trying to treat her and help her push through (since with her Lymphoma she would have what I called “slumps” but always got better a day or two later.) Nothing helped and I had to make the choice to euthanize her. I was so lucky to have a weeks notice before she was euthanized so I got to spend an entire week spoiling and loving her (and thankfully able to keep her comfortable throughout those days). I had a major breakdown about 5 days afterwards because I was just overwhelmed with the fact that everything of hers was around me but she was missing.

This year has just been a lot of lows with my pets tbh, my parakeet who I was very attached to died a few months later. My oldest hen Cayenne passed away as well from old age.

Mentally I’ve gone through more lows than ups, in the middle of this year my anxiety was so out of control that the most simple noises like someone breathing or finger tapping would make me want to bawl my eyes out. But as time has gone by it’s been improving, these past 2 months have thankfully been pretty good for me tbh.

I’m really hoping that 2024 will be a better year, I am a little worried about my other kitty, she’s 14 and while her cancer is in remission, I know it can come back at any time and take her from me. I’m just hoping her stubbornness will continue to kick cancers booty for many years to come.