HAPPY LIT DAY !!!! THE LITTEST DAY EVER (1 Viewer)

[ani07]

happy birthday :)

 

[litc]

You don't have to be productive all the time, its okay to take a break too!

Even without trying to take a break I’m unproductive
For someone who values productivity so much it’s amazing how unproductive I am

I am bad at taking breaks they’re either non existent or too long

 

[litc]

Belated lit day

happy birthday :)

Ty both

 

[the101]

Belated lit lit day!

 

[Moguri]

Even without trying to take a break I’m unproductive
For someone who values productivity so much it’s amazing how unproductive I am

I am bad at taking breaks they’re either non existent or too long

I guess you found a new skill you need master, taking breaks

 

[Juniverse]

i meant to post this earlier but here goes~

@MK3AM @uran my birthday buddies ~

and everyone else who wished me on ks yesterday:
@Day @Exi @ManduBun @StayCsPinkPanda @YouChanTheSheep @berry @Juniverse @nymphology @seungfloral @Chaeee @badcrookshanks @Cupid @CurlyGyu @Moguri @Tinkerbelle @Yerichu @Nina @velvet @OnlyCalB @Soogi @alo @ilychan @sunflower @OndaBest @lver @Jewel

Saying I HATE attention I wouldn't be exactly true. Getting no attention and being ignored all the time I would hate I do however really not like being made important and being the center of attention most of the time
I don't really like my birthday being made a big deal off, or ESPECIALLY this the 21st birthday. My birthdays not just “another day”, it’s a worse day. This is something I was DREADING for basically a year. It’s a big, milestone? age and it feels like the end of youth. I know it’s not, I know I’m young, I’d say I’m being dramatic but I feel calm. But I reached this age and what have I done? Have I done what I hoped to do before and met my goal for before I turn 21? No. So it’s just a reminder of that, and it’s not like a birthday’s a magic switch for happiness. I think feeling frustrated and not being happy about meeting goals or other things are valid, and it’s not erased by growing older. But ofc with this new age is an opportunity to grow, and I hope I accomplish what I hoped to by 21, at 21, and also become a better person, successful, learn more skills, manage better, make more friends, etc. Happiness with nothing else and no other emotion has no meaning

I’m glad I was able to go MIA the rest of the day here after waking up as I only intended to only be on for cards team stuff (as you now know was childrens day) and avoid the forum the rest of the day

Did I see or celebrate with my family? No, they live thousands of miles away and can't see for financial and health (not my health) reasons. I will not see them till Thanksgiving.

Did I celebrate with my friends irl? No. Also haven’t had a birthday party since I was 10 because I decided I was too old

Did I drink? No. Also I don't think I'm responsible enough honestly

Did I have a cake? No.

Did I eat or drink anything special? Just a Mountain Dew because I forgot how it tasted which I regret buying, I've stopped drinking soda and it's not like I like Mountain Dew

what did I do with my day? Idk… I wasted time doing who knows what. It was a “what am I doing with my life” lazy day. The internet was out so I slept a lot, so much that I missed my goal of eating two meals that day (I ate one meal, breakfast, the day before and only jerky and crackers the day before that and only some slices of tomatoes and salami and coffee the day before that). I also looked at and saved a bunch of AAPI books because I love AAPI month. I read a lil bit. I read a file of case closed volume 6 as well since shinichi’s birthday is May 4th like mine as I like to call FATE

was it great or special or productive or enlightening or anything else? Nah. Was it alright. Yeah. It was.

Do I regret not celebrating my birthday? Nah

do I regret not being productive? … yes

But it’s summer vacation so some slack I guess. I got today, Saturday and Sunday before summer classes start so I better get serious

Anyway while I was away from here it also made the wishes feel more valuable ig? Not just here but irl too, but after reflection I realized I was being a bit selfish. A birthday is just as much about the other people as the person whose birthday it is. It’s not for me to claim how great I am, nor would I. Congratulations for a birthday is also pure luck. Pure luck I didn’t accidentally fall of smth high the day before yesterday or smth like that. What’s the congratulations for. But I suppose it’s for the ppl in a persons life being glad for their existence? memories? Experience of getting to know them? Idk how to explain. But yeah. When I reject it, more so irl, it’s like their feelings don’t matter. So it was selfish. What is wallowing in “misery” going to accomplish anyways.

so yeah coming back it was more valuable and I’m amazed how many people cared to wish me I wouldn’t have expected it. Thank you ALL. I appreciate EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU
Thank you all, it did make me happy after I came back

I’m going to do my best to kill this new age I’m unfortunately a hopeless optimist with a growth mindset that puts jacks magic beans to shame most of the time anyway

If you read it all, thank you. I know I talk too much

I hope you all had a nice day~
all the love

and yeah I’m feeling “better” today, just gotta be productive before bed

omg i wish i came sooner to talk to you I'M SORRY

You deserve the happiest birthday ever I'm sorry it wasn't super amazing :( ILY SO SO SO SO SO MUCH YOU ARE THE YOUNGEST 21 EVA AND THE COOLEST AND MOST TASTEFUL <3

 

[tricky]

im late but happy birthday @litc I hope you have an amazing day <3