I hope you get good results but if you dont keep going and do what you do and learn from bad things so you can turn them into good things. Low selfesteem is a bitch and for me who also has hated everything abut myself since i can remember mindfulnes and forceful self love has worked a little. Try to compliment yourself daily from time to time, it feels bad and unnatural at first but at least for me it has helped. Remember you are a super cutie cunty slayful king and you are the best in my eyes huntie