.. do you think you ever will be? how do you imagine getting there and what do you think your happiness will look like....? I know it's something that comes and goes, but to me that's more like joy.. when I say happiness, I mean a general state of being okay and satisfied for more than just a few moments.. ofc things are never perfect but you know, doing well in life and feeling good, more or less.... idk
I guess I still have those silly fantasies, but I'll most likely never become who I wanna be and live the life I wish for.... if I can't do it while I'm still young, it's probably just gonna get worse later but I guess we'll see, you never really know for sure.. kinda sad to think I have so much potential but I'm utterly lost and messed up .. well, who knows.. maybe life surprises me in a positive way lol