Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (28 Viewers)

[Deleted member 74]

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[Deleted member 74]

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[dark_tranquility]

my mind is unpredictable as hell man

 

[dark_tranquility]

I hate suffering every other day

 

[Pirioca]

I hate suffering every other day

Distract yourself from that feelings when they try to overwhelm you. Listen to music, watch movies, play games.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Distract yourself from that feelings when they try to overwhelm you. Listen to music, watch movies, play games.

I do all those things still it lingers

 

[Pirioca]

I do all those things still it lingers

Maybe you need some new impulses, something you didn't do before. Did you every try practicing K-Pop dance performances? Your mind is busy with learning something new, your body is busy with making the correct moves. And if you totally fail, you can laugh about yourself (self-irony often helps!).

Of course, there's no need to film and share such things! It's something you should do for yourself (like painting or drawing, making music). Don't do these things just because others may like it. It's your journey.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Maybe you need some new impulses, something you didn't do before. Did you every try practicing K-Pop dance performances? Your mind is busy with learning something new, your body is busy with making the correct moves. And if you totally fail, you can laugh about yourself (self-irony often helps!).

Of course, there's no need to film and share such things! It's something you should do for yourself (like painting or drawing, making music). Don't do these things just because others may like it. It's your journey.

my journey is a long one, sculpted together from other less possible journeys

 

[Deleted member 74]

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[dark_tranquility]

caring is a thin lined thing

 

[karenina]

Spoiler: just venting to get it out of myself

Ich möchte einfach sterben. Ich habe alles so satt. Mein verdammt hässliches Gesicht hilft nicht, aber jetzt, wo ich meinen Mathetest nicht bestanden habe, gibt es mir noch mehr Grund dazu. Ich wollte tot sein, seit ich 12 war, und jeden Tag bekomme ich mehr Gründe, es zu beenden. Ich habe niemanden, der nach Hause kommt, um einen Freund zu haben, und ich werde nie einen bekommen. Ich bin so verdammt dumm, obwohl ich lerne. Ich kann nicht einmal gut Sprachen lernen. Meine Freunde sind alle sauer auf mich und ich möchte so sehr, dass das alles vorbei ist. Ich kann das nicht mehr tun, ich kann es wirklich nicht. Ich habe es satt, zu Gott zu beten, er möge mich töten. Ich wünschte, das Gedicht, das ich geschrieben habe, als ich jünger war, würde wahr werden. Ich wünschte, du wärst tot und liegst in deinem Bett. Die Augen schließen sich und öffnen sich nie wieder.

 

[karenina]

Spoiler: .

Haha, ich muss mir dumme Szenarien ausdenken, dass mich jemand liebt. Vielleicht ist es vorbei, wenn ich genug verhungere. Es tut mir leid, Nadyah, Jacey, Catherine und Seleste, meine Freunde, von denen ich mir ziemlich sicher bin, dass sie sich um mich kümmern. Es tut mir leid, Eltern, aber du hättest mich nicht so aussehen lassen sollen. Es tut mir allen Leid

 

[dark_tranquility]

Spoiler: just venting to get it out of myself

Ich möchte einfach sterben. Ich habe alles so satt. Mein verdammt hässliches Gesicht hilft nicht, aber jetzt, wo ich meinen Mathetest nicht bestanden habe, gibt es mir noch mehr Grund dazu. Ich wollte tot sein, seit ich 12 war, und jeden Tag bekomme ich mehr Gründe, es zu beenden. Ich habe niemanden, der nach Hause kommt, um einen Freund zu haben, und ich werde nie einen bekommen. Ich bin so verdammt dumm, obwohl ich lerne. Ich kann nicht einmal gut Sprachen lernen. Meine Freunde sind alle sauer auf mich und ich möchte so sehr, dass das alles vorbei ist. Ich kann das nicht mehr tun, ich kann es wirklich nicht. Ich habe es satt, zu Gott zu beten, er möge mich töten. Ich wünschte, das Gedicht, das ich geschrieben habe, als ich jünger war, würde wahr werden. Ich wünschte, du wärst tot und liegst in deinem Bett. Die Augen schließen sich und öffnen sich nie wieder.

google translate helped

I am sorry about your situation
I am the same

always doubting my abilities and self worth

 

[dark_tranquility]

Paranoia being annoying

 

[Deleted member 74]

Spoiler

I've been busier than ever, but I don't think I've been this depressed before in a while. not even in an emotional kind of way. just...nothing. like there's a wall between me and everything. I've been so distant and in my head lately, even when I'm right there. I go home and I feel nothing, just a long stretch of emptiness I try to fill. I question whether I'm nothing or not a lot. I've been piecing things together in my head lately, but I still smile and act like nothing is wrong at all. everything's wrong. but what can we do? will complaining make it better? nothing will make it better so what choice do I have but to keep going as best as I can, right?

 

[dark_tranquility]

I hate being paranoid bloody hell

 

[karenina]

scrolling through their insta makes me hate myself, the way i know i will never be as pretty as her or have a husband as handsome or have a family

 

[karenina]

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[karenina]

just venting I don't know why seeing people happy brings me so much pain. It's not that I wish bad upon them but it's just quite hard to have to wake up to my reality and knowing they wake up to that. And its not only that but its also me knowing I can never have what they have. Because I will never be able to be pretty enough to be loved by a man. At this point, I don't mind if he cheats or anything, just for him to even pretend to love me would be enough. I'm tired of all of my friends getting boyfriends and me skipping out on dances because I'm alone. I'm not even jealous of their boyfriends, I'm just jealous of the relationship they have. And I hate how no matter how much makeup or "self-care" stuff I do to "glow up" none of that shit ever works and I still look my ugly fucking self. At this point, I don't know what to do anymore because my dumbass self isnt even doing good in math this year and every stupid year this gets worse and my life seems to be more meaningless. And I know my future is set in stone and there's nothing I can do to avoid it, which is me being stuck in middle-class for the rest of my life working a stupid 9-5 job I don't even enjoy and being single for the rest of my life because of my fucking face that even surgery couldn't fix. I'm just so fucking done and I can't believe that if I live an average lifetime, I have to go through around 50 more years of this shit. And I know other people have it much worse but that doesn't stop me from hating this all. I just hope I was in a simulation and when I wake up, I'm beautiful and all these people love me or something. Because I'm not pretty enough to model or be famous, smart enough to discover something, athletic enough to win a medal, or talented enough to sing/dance/anything else in that catergory. So I'm just stuck with a stupid office job for the rest of my life. And I'm losing to see the point of living if for the rest of my life, I come home to an empty, sad apartment and tired from my stupid job.

 

[karenina]

just venting if God is real, I FUCKING HATE HIM because he has made my life a living hell