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All alone again:( ig I’m not allowed to be happy. Every single person I cared about is gone. No one to talk to, no one to listen to. Emptiness.
i just saw this and i hope youre doing better now ed and if theres anything you can talk to me at all times !! 🤍i have never felt so low in my life
♡a look back at my school life because its going to officially end in two days. well where do i start. its been a very long and rather exahusting period in my life. i had always struggled in school there is no doubt about that. since my childhood, i could never focus on my studies since 1st grade. i would get really bad grades and had rude teachers and my parents weren't helpful too. then time passed for 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th grade things were the same and even worsened during the later years. i got bullied horribly. i had a few best friends who made it not-so-horrible though. but still it was hard, that phase, now that i look at it. i was so lost, i was so lost that i didnt know what i was doing. its like i stopped caring and just did things. ik it doesn't make sense but it was like a very weird time, because i was basically constantly trying to hold my mental health together and the worst part was i didnt even know at that time what mental health was. so yeah. but 9th grade saw a change in me. 2018. i had came to a new place, a new school, a much smaller one. but i liked it. this was also the time i started listening to twice (<3) changed my life. and i'll always be thankful to them. i basically owe what i am today to them. they made my life change. i failed at maths, german and had bad grades in science in 8th grade. but in the first exams of 9th grade, i had gotten the highest score in class in science. it was so new and so unreal for me. i took time to process it. and when i did, i found a new me. a new version of me perhaps. this version was so much aware of himself and so much more worried about his future. he was present. this was a turning point in my life. 9th, 10th grade went absolutely great. 11th grade, didn't go really well, but i was in a new school again, everyone was so nice to me. i felt so welcomed. even though everyone was intimidating, they were all very nice. made a lot of my besties! that i'll cherish for the rest of my life. 12th grade went fine for the first half but then the first finals went not very good, though i am certain of a redemption arc in my second and final, finals. wow so i guess this is the end. this is where all those mixed emotions come to end, this is where the road ends. its been a tough journey. but i did it. and i'm proud of myself. i think.
i’m doing better now thank you :)i just saw this and i hope youre doing better now ed and if theres anything you can talk to me at all times !! 🤍
Do you want to talk about it? I hope I don’t sound intrusive but I’m sure you don’t mean thatI wish I were dead
Oh, I do mean it.Do you want to talk about it? I hope I don’t sound intrusive but I’m sure you don’t mean that
Life is precious, never wish that you were dead over the chance of living♡Oh, I do mean it.