Sometimes I don't feel like enough for my family. I know it's probably not true for at least some of my family, but sometimes I think if I die they wouldn't notice. I'm not good enough at French, I'm not good enough at understanding business. I can't write for shit. I spend my time doing something useless. It's weird. I've never felt something like this, this STRONGLY before. I don't think I've ever thought about dying before, but for some reason, it's just kinda there in the back of my head. It doesn't feel right, but it's not going away
Maybe you can try to express this to them by talking or even writing them a letter? maybe it would help? I think it's ok not to be good at some things.. there are surely things you can do well too.. I'm not sure if maybe your parents scold you or something, but I'm sure they love you just the same whether you are good or not at these things. Parents are people too and they don't always choose the right words, but they deeply love us, more often than not.. again, idk what your situation is and don't mean to tell you what to do, but it's just something to keep in mind. In any case, I hope you feel better soon and if these dark thoughts don't go away soon, please ask for help. It's dangerous to linger in that kind of place. Wishing you lots of luck :)