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[kodoku]

gonna get my blood and vitamin situation checked in a few weeks and in a few months I'll go see a dermatologist because my skin is outta control :// and I'll also call my psychiatrist and do my best to get into therapy as well....... I need help and I need to get it.... I have to at least try mm..

 

[kodoku]

the fact that I don't write anymore scares me and I question whether I will ever even finish my book at all...... it really makes me sad...... :((

@Bookworm bestie you are amazing for chasing your dreams, I always think of this.. it's bittersweet because I'm proud of you but also wish I could be like you ..

 

[kodoku]

it's hard to believe, even as I look at you every day.. how bad things went, how we changed, and what a crappy person you turned out to be.. truly sad...... I have to work on moving on.....

 

[dark_tranquility]

I feel depressed again and I always feel like this during the day and at night. It's like my mind doesn't want to think of nothing else but death and suicide.
So annoying bleh. (got to stop thinking like that)

 

[Tickita]

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[Mew]

As my hell Pms week has passed on my reflection of my obsession with San during that time... He has now been promoted to my Ateez bias... Mingi I'm sorry TT...
Also seonghwa, youre energy has always been high but you ain't snatching me from San, there's enough group activities and discography for my bias to be cemented and San as picked me lol

Speaking of which, the next TxT comeback will cement my bias, Yeonjun was the one from debut, then beomgyu was like nah bitch you thought through the dream chapter era.... And he's winning now...

Haven't been this conflicted since SHINee debut, Key vs Onew was hard.... Man but Onew won, but key still bias wrecking till this very day.

GG's are less conflicting for me... I say that but I still struggle, I flip flop between two girls from a group always...like every GG comeback is like a fuck you bias list especially with new groups from the last couple of years.
Being stuck between Mia, aisha and yerin... Is so difficult.
Oh gawd now I'm thinking into my GG bias.... I have dug my grave... TT

Ryujin it was for itzy but this comeback Lia was like... 'hi there'

 

[kodoku]

Something's missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As lovers left me to bleed alone..

 

[kodoku]

You were the first to say
That we were not okay
You were the first to lie
When we were not alright
This was my first love
He was the first to go
And when he left me for you
I was the last to know

I'll be the first to say
That now I'm okay
And for the first time
I've opened up my eyes
This was my worst love
You'll be the first to go
And when he leaves you for dead
You'll be the last to know

</3

 

[kodoku]

I am still so tired, tired beyond words and everything hurts, my whole body I swear, bleh.. I really need to sleep..

 

[kodoku]

so much to do, it's all stressing me out, idk what to do about this life...... just try, little by little, for now......

 

[dark_tranquility]

I feel like my self esteem has hit an all time low. I don't think I will get anything out of this life. Everyday I am just waiting for the end already. Nothing ever good happens to me and I suck at everything I set out to do...

 

[Tickita]

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[kodoku]

Aww, bestieee... TT... I am ugly-smiling so hard right now. You're so sweet... Love you... <333

Maybe you're just in a writing funk right now. It could still pass! In fact I'm sure it will. I once didn't write for a whole year, and had to slowly pick up the pieces bit by bit...

Also, I wish I could be like you too... really, truly. You deal with so much. You're a survivor, and are still so kind to everyone... ❤

Aw thank you so much bestie, really means a lot...♥♥

 

[dark_tranquility]

Started up energy drinks again because I am bored during the day. Oh well.

 

[Inactive]

Some people just don't listen 😔

 

[dark_tranquility]

When to quit and when not to. Energy drinks and sugar hits :(

 

[Tickita]

I can't wait to take vacation

 

[Tickita]

Also, I found a laptop. With great reviews, lots of storage, and priced under 1000. What a steal