I am though

Every time I make life harder for someone, stress someone out, I feel so guilty
Even if it’s not intentional, even if it’s bc of adhd sometimes, it doesn’t change it
Just bc I do try to do my best and be a good person, and learn from my mistakes, and constantly grow, and that that’s genuine, just because I positively impact some people or they find me sweet, smart, wtv, doesn’t mean every time I impact anyone in any way it’s always positive, sometimes it’s negative too and that’s valid too
growth is not an eraser and I’m sorry. I feel so bad about every mistake I’ve made that negatively impacted someone else. If it only harms me, that’s fair, it’s my fault, I deserve it. But others?
even if I feel wronged too, I could be wrong too, I could’ve been selfish tho usually I’m told to learn to be selfish