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mysteric
so I’m section leader for the altos and I’m really down with everyone and I’m crying because I’m so mad. Mad at them and myself. We get nothing done, no one tries, everyone comes late, we have no shows who don’t tell us about tutoring sessions until 2 minutes before sectionals so I have to change the entire plan and everyone gets mad at me when sectionals get prolonged since no one is listening or coming. And I’m mad at myself since I feel like it’s my fault for being too lenient with them and causing this entire fucking mess. I just want everyone to get along and get actual productive work done but they take advantage of it and I feel like it’s my fault that they’re going to do badly even though it’s not my fault. And I know it’s not my fault but it’s hard seeing people give up on themselves since I always feel like I’m taking all the flying craps they don’t care about so I’m carrying all those craps on me. And I’m crying right now I’m so mad and sorry if you’re reading this I’m a mess