18+ ~Ranting and Venting~ New Rules Added. Just a tiny set (1 Viewer)

[mysteric]

I hate how I always start getting into groups right when they start to d word
first IOI, then 2ne1, f(x) my ults, and now R1SE (not to mention I'm lowkey starting to stan npc and unine rn)

 

[jasque]

Ok, I see where this is going now.

Still amusing how people try to change reality by brute force though.

 

[jasque]

That just makes me want to destroy it

 

[dark_tranquility]

I can't get out of my lifecycle of self loathing and self pity.
Help me help myself : /

 

[jasque]

I think about that and it only makes me nervous...

That isn't right, this isn't my pace.

Priorities are all messed up.

I decide to do my own thing but still... sigh.

If you won't follow even your own words, idk anymore, idk.

If I wanted this stress I'd find someone to date lol

 

[dark_tranquility]

Kind of thinking why do I listen to the artists and bands I do when they did these mistakes.
Mistakes which cost them their careers and reputation.

I guess I try to 'block' out their misdeeds and think of their music.
Like dissection is still a great band, despite Jon's controversial murder conviction and
G.NA. with that prostitution scandal.

I try not to think about those things, because we all make mistakes. Just some worse than others.

 

[jasque]

Uh I think I made myself clear now...

No idea where this will go, but that's how life is right?

 

[dark_tranquility]

Sippin' on sunshine and daisies <3
So sick of losing friends every left right and center.

I do nothing wrong and just end up picking the wrong kind of mate I guess?
Gonna have to be more assertive in how I pick em yep!

 

[jasque]

Ok, here I am all insecure again.

I need to stop trying to read minds and stop assuming people have a perfect memory...

Smh

 

[dark_tranquility]

I feel like after my latest friend drop out. I don't want to make any new friends for a good while.
It still fresh in my mind and hurts.

The fact I trusted him, welcomed them into my home and other comforts.
Yet he treats me like shit. Ain't nobody got time for that!

 

[jasque]

Lost my patience and started saying everything that was on my mind

The best is that I still have a lot more to say lmao

I think evil jasque is back

 

[dark_tranquility]

To say how I feel is so hard a lot of the time.
I feel intimidated to have an opinion on anything.

Because I feel like I don't matter, so my opinions and views don't matter either.

 

[AmysTeri]

Imagine trying to transcribe a statement given by a stay-at-home mom with a cranky toddler. I mean, I feel for the mom and understand she's gotta take car of her child, but I also feel for my ears (as I have to keep turning up the volume to try and decipher what's being said through the screeching) and for my patience.

Have to remind myself to be grateful because at least I have a job, so.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Losing friends faster than I can eat a box full of muffin bars hurts....
I wish people didn't have a hidden agenda or reason to drop you or treat you like crap....

So sick of having friends who turn out fake and dodge later.

 

[Wonpil]

why would i do this to myself?

my math hw that was due last week

i put complete, but i didn't do the work

and so now he's asking me for it

so i'm doing 6 days worth of math homework in 1 night

i've gotten half of it done

:(

 

[dark_tranquility]

I wish I didn't put myself down all the time, but it's so hard to be positive in a negative world.

 

[jasque]

Forgot to rant here more.

What will i complain next?

Maybe about my lack of will power.

 

[jasque]

Know what?

The easiest way is the best way.

There, Steve Jobs and Silicon Valley my dudes.

You guys are right.

What is this?
Do I suddenly want to go to Starbucks or what?

 

[dark_tranquility]

I just do the same boring shit day in and day out. : /
Why do I even bother getting up in the mornings...

No wonder I sleep so much.

 

[jasque]

I know comparing isn't useful, but being a nobody sucks sometimes.

I don't have patience to keep insisting going around saying "Hey, I'm here."

If you don't care about me, I could care less about you.