Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (27 Viewers)

[doll]

Spoiler

Someone being nice to you then manipulating you is actually a common cycle of abuse and a way to trap the intended victim with highs and lows and while there might be trauma behind being that way however it's not justifiable by any means and looking for reason in it isn't a good thing to do because generally there isn't one.

You should focus on trying to cut her out of your life and moving on to people who actually do care about you and building yourself back up because you weren't the problem she was and still is and that won't change so you trying to keep her in your life will only harm you.

Spoiler

I can't cut her out of my life because everytime ive tried she has came back another way, literally. And I know all she does is hurt me but I still love her because she's been through so much
Idk

 

[doll]

all i wanted was for you to care about me

 

[doll]

i feel so much and nothing at the same time i can't do this 😹😹😹😹

 

[eclipsoul]

reading the posts from the times when i genuinely thought i was the happiest person ever makes me cry for hours. it's almost like i had everything one day and nothing the next one. my closest family no longer gets along, i used to consider my mom i used to consider my best friend for life doesn't even talk to me for whatever reason and my other friends just don't have time for me anymore and my new university major of choice is slowly crushing me. i would have done anything to turn back time to pre-pandemic times and appreciate those days but i can't and have to suffer the present times. also i can't even look at the posts when i said i would never consume too much alcohol because these days i do not go one single day without it. i feel like i've reached rock bottom and don't know how to get up. fuck. i wouldn't even post in this thread normally since i kept my private life away from kpop forums but i feel like this is the only place that will listen and someone to listen to me is what i need the most in moments like this.

 

[Abeamus]

reading the posts from the times when i genuinely thought i was the happiest person ever makes me cry for hours. it's almost like i had everything one day and nothing the next one. my closest family no longer gets along, i used to consider my mom i used to consider my best friend for life doesn't even talk to me for whatever reason and my other friends just don't have time for me anymore and my new university major of choice is slowly crushing me. i would have done anything to turn back time to pre-pandemic times and appreciate those days but i can't and have to suffer the present times. also i can't even look at the posts when i said i would never consume too much alcohol because these days i do not go one single day without it. i feel like i've reached rock bottom and don't know how to get up. fuck. i wouldn't even post in this thread normally since i kept my private life away from kpop forums but i feel like this is the only place that will listen and someone to listen to me is what i need the most in moments like this.

If you need someone to talk to I'd be happy to listen so my dms are open if you ever wanna shoot me something

 

[dark_tranquility]

Drowning in more problems, when does it end?

 

[athenaaa]

I’m content with what I have done up until this point, I don’t think there’s anything else more I could accomplish. I am pretty useless afterall. I feel like people just stick around out of pity now anyway. If I disappeared people would miss me for a few weeks maximum and then they’d get over it. Almost like I never even existed in the first place. I wish I didn’t. I used to think it would be so hard to let go of certain things. Now I’m just done with living. Each day up until this point has been extra time I never even should’ve gotten.

 

[dark_tranquility]

My name and status forgotten
my illness thriving
almost makes me feel like crying

 

[doll]

Im a bad person and i know that, its not that u dont care its that i can't 😂. why ask if you'll say im lying?

 

[dark_tranquility]

Trash goes in and comes out.

 

[ning]

I wonder why it pleases her so much when she fat shames me then goes on to say how i look so pretty, thats bullshit. Stick to one side

 

[Tickita]

Spoiler

Perhaps you should stop making it your mission to get me to fit in. I don't care about that, and I've never clicked with the majority of people out here anyway. Shit can't be forced, what tf are you doing. You're not doing me a favor you're just pissing me off.
And omfg stop trying to understand me, you're never right. Which is totally fine, just stop damn it.

 

[ning]

Cant help the shaking

 

[dark_tranquility]

I see sh** and then I panic which makes the voices stronger.
I am not allowing myself to be seduced. It wears me out fighting them in my mind.

 

[athenaaa]

I’m a liar
My whole personality is fake
Don’t trust me
Don’t get too close
Don’t love me
Leave me
I’m no good for you

 

[dark_tranquility]

I need help with my mind.

 

[noctis]

Why am I the way I am.

 

[noctis]

I feel like crying my eyes out

 

[dark_tranquility]

But it's fun sometimes???

 

[noctis]

I dont know how to comfort..