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[dark_tranquility]

Losing your phone yeahhhh right

 

[Deleted member 74]

I want to end me

 

[dark_tranquility]

just make sure I am sane and alert

 

[Deleted member 74]

~

 

[dark_tranquility]

I look forward but it doesn't help

 

[dark_tranquility]

I must become who I want to be
not something I should be

 

[AleXa]

I am not really coping to well with things right now .

 

[dark_tranquility]

I wish I could turn back time
When I wasn't diagnosed

 

[dark_tranquility]

the pain feels like waves over my skin

 

[Deleted member 74]

“He presses two fingers against each eye and attempts to account for this crippling melancholy, but is having trouble with rational thought. It feels as if someone has taken his head and shaken it. Words are turning to mush and he can see no plausible way of getting through this. Don’t fall apart, he tells himself, not here, not now. Hold it together.”

“These days grief seems like walking on a frozen river; most of the time he feels safe enough, but there is always that danger that he will plunge through. Now he hears the ice creak beneath him, and so intense and panicking is the sensation that he has to stand for a moment, press his hands to his face and catch his breath.”

 

[dark_tranquility]

Funeral in my mind
yet I am breathing this cold air

 

[AleXa]

My cat passed away

 

[dark_tranquility]

This isn't good
When I ain't stable I go bonkers >:

 

[owo]

Spoiler

at this point the only way to make it stop is to fuckin off myself then i never have to deal with this shit ever again and i can finally have some damn peace. every day every week every fucking hour im going insane. they wont STOP. NOBODY STOPS. ITS SOMETHING NEW. JESUS CHRIST.

there's nothing i can do to move forward. nothing works. nothing i can do. they dont care. everybody in this building is a dickhead.

i was such in a good spot mentally to move forward with myself and then the MOMENT i start getting work done everybody around me has it has their fucking mission to ruin it. and when its not one, its the other. im at my breaking point i cant handle it anymore. my shitty brain cant handle it. i cant focus i cant LIVE. i cant LIVE. panic attacks, outburst, i cant fight it off. if i try to do anything, i panic. so all i can do. is lie down and try my best to zone out and wait until its over. which could be up to hours.

i have like maybe 1-2 hours of mental freedom and then its over. im so sick of this can i go back to having a proper life or should i really just die because this is never gonna end whats the point

 

[dark_tranquility]

Spoiler

at this point the only way to make it stop is to fuckin off myself then i never have to deal with this shit ever again and i can finally have some damn peace. every day every week every fucking hour im going insane. they wont STOP. NOBODY STOPS. ITS SOMETHING NEW. JESUS CHRIST.

there's nothing i can do to move forward. nothing works. nothing i can do. they dont care. everybody in this building is a dickhead.

i was such in a good spot mentally to move forward with myself and then the MOMENT i start getting work done everybody around me has it has their fucking mission to ruin it. and when its not one, its the other. im at my breaking point i cant handle it anymore. my shitty brain cant handle it. i cant focus i cant LIVE. i cant LIVE. panic attacks, outburst, i cant fight it off. if i try to do anything, i panic. so all i can do. is lie down and try my best to zone out and wait until its over. which could be up to hours.

i have like maybe 1-2 hours of mental freedom and then its over. im so sick of this can i go back to having a proper life or should i really just die because this is never gonna end whats the point

oh no I am so sorry
I am the same, but I push myself to get through the day.
Do not do suicide people love you here and you will missed terribly.

 

[athenaaa]

It’s been a while since I have been here. Something isn’t right and I can’t quite articulate it. Like I feel impending doom but it’s not happening yet. So I am just in limbo waiting. I feel anxious all the time and am operating on autopilot. I am going through the motions but I don’t feel anything.

 

[dark_tranquility]

when I get the reigns it is ok.

 

[ning]

Spoiler: mentions of ed

the more i think about it, the more i start to feel like i could possibly develop an eating disorder. hearing the signs of an eating disorders fits me. ik i cant starve myself while at home with my parents but ik in the future when im living alone i could. i want to. i hate my body. i hate everything about it. i cant wear anything and feel confident in myself bc theres always that little voice in the back of my head telling me im a fatass. and my mom is no help either. always telling me to eat less, to exercise more, upping the "diet" restrictions so i lose weight. i cant love myself. thats impossible. everytime i feel like im getting better, my stupid mind has to ruin it. i cant get help. im scared ill get blamed and shamed. im scared my mom will get mad at me. im scared. i can never lose weight. im scared of scales. im scared of the number itll give me. im scared of telling my mom what the scale said. im scared of her getting mad. im scared of people making fun of me. im scared.

 

[ning]

my overthinking is my demon. it never leaves me alone. its the cause for everything. i can never enjoy life bc then it makes me think im disgusting, the most useless, terrible person on earth. i want it to go away.

 

[dark_tranquility]

my overthinking is my demon. it never leaves me alone. its the cause for everything. i can never enjoy life bc then it makes me think im disgusting, the most useless, terrible person on earth. i want it to go away.

My step mother is rather nasty too
I hope you heal in time.
No one deserves to feel what you do.
Days are happy, you will see it I know so

In contrast I was really skinny
and anorexic

I don't listen to my parent(s) well my dad but that's all.